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last day... one last day of work before i have my rest ..eheh.. have been working for the past 7 days.. non-stop from either 1pm to 2am or 3pm to 2am .. not much life except work n work n work... but i kinda enjoy it ... especially with my frenz... really really miss their company... they are so real and true.. feeling really comfortable just playing n joking around with them..hehe..
but still i need some rest... need to go for run n swim soon.. haven been excersing .. n have been eating non-stop at plaza.. goodness.. though i did lots of tough work there.. the amt of things i ate can really cover it man.. just hope that i dun put on more weight... mantaining in will do ..hehe. work too much that i will dream of working while sleeping too .. every night get home ,clean up ... then sleep ... immediately ... then wake up at 10 plus 11 to use the net .. then off to work again.. getting so used to the rountine .... n it has been one of the toughest period i have experience in plaza... its like a war for most of the day.. guy can go up to 2 persons looking after 10 tables... n mi .. running from bar to helping the VIP in Both ROOms...n n looking after the whole function... ok la .. not to the extreme la.. but i really did alot .. n cos of that my boss play mi extra money though i didnt work 2 person to 5 tables ...but yesterday was better... its the most slack day actually .. cos i can really take my own sweet time. . haha ..
excited abt going back to LITO too .. waiting for Karen to reply mi ... then i can plan my scendule..hehe.... though wun be facilitating with nic n azizhah ... but still excited abt returning to the UWS..
time for some mahjong again.. have been "recall" to play mahjong by couple of frenz.. haha .. hmm.. wun be playing too much i hope ..hehe...
my frenz just bought a web cam.. n we will playing with it .. haha ... seeing him in action in msn .. so fun .. i can see u , but u cant see mi .. haha .. suddenly i just hope that school wll never start.. haha ... n my vacation can be long .. hah ... how i wish .. though i still have 2 more months.. haha ...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/31/2004 12:34:00 PM
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a great experience yesterday.Was serving the VIP table.. but its the table for the VIP VIP .. haha .. initially thought that They will be sitting on Siew Kim table .. but dunno y , they ended up at mine. think its the mistake of our boss la .. but then he never ask us to change .. anyway, i also dun bother.. serve serve lor ... like i dunno how to serve like that.. just a little more stress onli wat. i can handle it .. beside jeffery is there to help too .. basically there were 4 tables yesterday. Its the function for the nanyang Ke Shi Gong Hui ..think its a very big non-profit organisation if i'm not wrong . Thought that coming into my mind, why are this ppl doing in plaza.. they should be in somewhere else.. heheh ...they brought in 40 boxes of red wine.one box has abt 12 bottles... imagine ... goodness.. in the end we got to place red wine glass on every side and one bottle on every table to save some of our job ... if not , we bound to run to n fro the bar corner.. heheh ...Anyway, my table was all drinking tea.. so still ok for mi .hehe.. Ya, as i was saying, i didnt realised that i was serving the VIP .. at one moment , i was topping up the drink , so since everyone was drinking tea , i just stood by a place and starting pouring tea for everyone, even those that are far..so as i pour , i pour till the guest that was sitting beside the VIP , err . n the drink kinda split out some tea... its a very minor thing.. really.. nothing big deal.. but then , the VIP immediately turn over n look at mi... i refuse to look at him and walk away .. hehe ... pretend that nothing happen.. goodnesss.. stress.. after that i become very very careful.. Soon after i realised that my tables was sat with all ASEANs rich Chinese merchants... i know they are rich .. but i didnt know there are for all over SEA... goodness.. so when its time for sourvine .. everyone went up.. so my table is so so empty.. no ppl ... goodness.. n all the food are cold already. .. n i got to keep finding place to place the food n still make sure it look nice instead of messy... ahhh... u can really see my table .. never see this kind of pattern before.. its super nice n neat... n full of food .. hahah ...Just hope that there isnt any complain ... not expecting any compliment .. just no complain can liao .. hehe ...
was working till 2am yesterday, setting up for the wedding function...was putting the plates around while others put other stuffs... spliting the job ... when i'm done with mine. i decided to go put the chopstick holder. then come this stupid guy that trying to do the same thing as mi...so i call him to go n help Calvin to put the spoon... but he insist of putting the chopstick holder n call mi to go put chopstick instead ... First, i already dun really like him .. cos he is so slow .. n never really put in effort in working.. i feel that he is always trying to eat snake.. n he look very clumsy too... second, i hate ppl to order mi .. especially if i know u are not better than mi...n point being, i dun like u .. so dun u dare to order mi.. sorry , but i'm a very stubborn person n hate order unless you can convince mi that u are better... n the fact is that others are also calling him to do other stuff .. but he refuse n insist of doing that .. ok lor .. FINE.. go n do .. wat the hell.. u call mi to put chopstick while u are putting chopsticker holder.. n u r so damn slow.. obivously i cannot put the chopstick until u are done rite ... so u expect mi to wait for u ah.. if u are fast, go ahead .. i wun stop u lor .. but u are so damn slow lor ... n so pissed when u trying to order mi .. boy.. i work here longer than u lei...though i onli come back in the holi n i'm a gal.. but i dun think i'm weaker than u lor.. i'm very confident abt that... so i just throw the jar in the basket n walk off... go n put the no stand instead... wun be so stupid to listen to his order... When i'm angry, i'm angry.. so i never make sense... n i dun care.. n the worst thing is i lost my temper very easily recently.. but still i try to control them at plaza.. n the ppl there know that i seldom reAlly throw my temper there too.. so everyone was a bit shocked n worried .. the ppl there already take care of mi .. of course, being mi , i didnt angry for too long ...but just something that pissed mi .. n the worst is, he cant even put the chopstick holder properly.. in the end, he was scolded by CAlvin .. if u want to do the job , do it properly .. .dun do it half heartedly .. its so irritating u know... i think wat really irritated mi is becos he is trying to be like one of us.. i believe everyone has their unqiue character .. maybe becos he wanted to be in the main flow.. which is our gang, so he trying to be like us.. following us n behaving like us.. hey man , where is ur own style.. u can be in the main stream but still retend ur own style u noe.... dun just blindly follow... n if u want to follow .. follow ppl that are famous n successful la.. follow us , where got use.. pissed... but a bit pity him too .. cos its hard to try to let ppl recoginse u .. but still i was too pissed to think properly then.. hmm.. really got to control my temper.. or i will ended up pissing everyone.. cos i'm really senseless when i'm angry .. .
desmond behaving very weird yesterday. think he is really very tired.. goodness. he really dunno how to look after himself lei ... should have gone home n rest .. but inside he work till 2am .. then he start banging the door etc etc.. just like mi when i'm pissed.. hmm... really dunno how to say him ..say he also dun want to listen... anyway, i better dun go n disturb him...
Have been thinking of my ex. thinking of all the things we have been through. the joy n laughter that we share... feeling really sorry abt my insensible behaviour.. think abt it now, i really think he was rite abt certain stuff and understand why n what he is really pissed abt mi .got to say that i'm kinda regret ... been through so much ...dunno how is he now.. doing whether has he went Thailand to climb ... knoe that i will be seeing him so in school ... but dun think i will be talking to him.. wanted to sms him n apologise to him abt stuff.. but wats the point, he might not even want to talk to mi .. n i dun want to feel the hurt again... it really hurt mi cos i know that we dun belong to the same world but yet i love him.. i miss his hugs, his kisses n of course i miss him. Still remember how safe n comfortable i feel laying in his arms... holding his hands.... guess i just need a sign.. a sign to show mi something .. then i will go all the way out ... a sign to hint mi ... hmm.. anyway,just a thought that come to my mind... dun worry ppl , i'm doing fine.. but just a thought that come across my mine...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/28/2004 10:01:00 AM
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hmmm.. have been really tired recently ... working 3pm to 2am then 2pm to 2am .. goodness... my eyes are so painful now... n u can really see my eye bags man .. goodness... n i haven been excerising ... ahhh...
went for my tuitions today.. dunno why, i have been losing my temper ... scolding both my students today ... maybe its becos i dun have enough sleep ... but still they are not serious enough... going down to one of my student school.. trying to get the exam paper from the teacher.. dun understand y is the teacher keeping the papers and refuse to let the student take them home ... stupid teacher.. keeping the paper n never go through in class.. how u expect the student to understand ...something sweet to share, my the other student actually teach mi to fold a flying crane .. haha .. so stupid .. but cute.. so nice of her...
thought of going to run tonight.. but i'm just too tired .. maybe i should go n swim tml .. cant help it .. i really haven been excerising .. feeling so guilty now ... going to swim before i go for my work.. just hope that i wun be too exhausted.. haha ...
got to work for thu till sunday.. going to start work at 3pm n most likely till 2am for everyday...going to loss lots of sleep again ... but since recently there are functions at plaza.. its better that i grab the opportunity n work more.. cos i think the buz isnt good recently ..so its very good that there are functions coming in .. hehe.. just hope that i can earn enough to buy myself a dig cam n a new pair of spec.. heheh ...
mixing with the plaza ppl recently.. haha .. taking in lots of second hand smoke .. but wat to do.. almost all guys that work till 2am smoke...so just have to bare with it...was surprise to see how "creative" this ppl can be just to get wat they want.. they can play mahjong in the office (which is freaky small) at 1am when we are supposed to leave at 2am...seeing them playing so fast n gaming so fast... so stupid.. haha .. but they play super big man ... 50cent , $1, $2,$3, $5 n max $10 ... siao one... dun dare to play with them.. i can just sit there n watch can liao .h.ehehe...
was being allocated 2 reserve tables on tues... super lucky.. hehe.. so basically i got nothing to do cos both my tables are empty.. but i got to do drink server during cocktail.. wat lao .. now my arm is super tone liao.. cos i got to carry the tray around... full of glasses for 1 hr..now aching too .. haha.goodness.. u can really see the muscle man .. haha .. got a chance to work in bar too (drink section)..super cool.. cos i always like to work in bar.. hehe .. happy happy .. good thing is there is onli one function with many tables.. so there is onli one bar man .. so i got to help him .. n after that i refuse to go anywhere.. haha .. so basically i;m just topping up drink for ppl ... its so fun .. maybe becos i didnt do the tough thing in bar too .. cos all the tough thing will need the guys to carry heavy stuff around ..so lucky mi.. haha..
working with them for onli 2 days.. n u can see all my bad habit coming out again .. all the 4 letter words etc are all coming back.. goodness.. should restrict myself from being influence too much man.. haha ... but i think a bit hard cos u keep hearing them ... watever it is .. they are still fun company to hang out with.. full of joy n laughter.. haha ..
btw, saw beng chong on tv mobile .. ahah .. surprise surprise.. n i miss my bacholar on friday.. sian.. n i going to miss again this friday cos i got to work .. ahh.......but still money more important .. haha
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/27/2004 12:33:00 AM
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tiring tiring ... have camp, work and work and work..hehe..Went for LITO on sat. get to know a couple of very very cool ppl .. Funny and crappy.. ppl like azizah, nick,AL,angeline , patrick..hehe.. and the kids... its really a very fun experience... went down as an observer and gain pretty much from them cos they are really good and experienced... Especially Nick . He really can talk damn well ...a natural born speaker..hehe... at first, i thought of changing the date to some other days as i want to go plaza to work.. but its too late to change ... so glad that i didnt ... cos i will regret if i did ..hehe.. cos they are REalLY fun and sporty ppl .. .hehe.. very very friendly ..hehe.. n they are all younger than mi ... ah... goodness.. i felt so old...hehe... ok la ... i dun look that old ....so its ok ..ehehe..
Actually i was hoping that i can get a secondary student group cos i wanted to see how the facilitators present their speech .. but itS A very good experience dueing with the kids too cos u already need the energy to attract their attention ..and to keep them entertain too ...good thing is that there are 5 facilitators.. cant image if there are onli 2 of them ... that will be pretty tough i guess...hehe.. anyway, while eating our lunch , patrick came along... cant believe he is actually the Duty Manager... he is so so crapppy ... and "dirty".. cant believe that a duty manager can be so crazy ... hah ... but its really a fun thingy...
But the bad thing is a lot of thing went wrong ... lots of system cannot operate , so we will need to change a lot of activities to replace those that are affected... n really got a hard time trying to think of the games to entertain the kids.. cos there are some many things that they dun understand ... and they onli have a short life span of attention... anyway, i tried....hehe... learn something again ..hehe.h.but the kids are really very very cute , especially Tiffany, Muddles, Amos n Ryutoro... hope i get their names rite .. cos i'm really bad at names.. hehe..
Spend a very fun night with the facilitator while the kids are alseep in the underwater world tunnel... we will like telling ghost stories.. then soon after it become dirty joke session.. with Nick whistering to censor the dirty word.... goodness.. its so so crappy .. wat oreao, jackfruit, orange , durian , rambutan and even kiwi .... u can imagine man ..hehe.. n the worst thing is i'm tryin to sleep cos i dun have much .. but on my left is 2 guys talking dirty joke while on my right is 1 gal laughing non-stop... i'm in between ... aghhhh... anyway, its ok to miss some sleep for some fun ... hehe....
Finish the LITO on sunday afternoon , have our lunch together before saying good bye ... immediately i went down to Clake quay to help ying with her stall .. think the buz is quite good... average la.. hehe.. but the place is damn hot .. goodness.. imagine that i'm so freaky tiring . n still have to sit under the sun.. lucky i have a bath at sentosa before coming out ... hehe...
went home after 5 pm to take a bath.. sleep all the way back on the bus .. was too tired... hehehe... after my bath.. i cant even take a nap.. i got to rush down to Chevron for a frenz birthday party ... meet up with a lot of my long never keep in touch frenz..hehe.. n i saw andrea there too ... Was intending to go home early to take a rest.. but ended up we will play mahjong while waiting for one of our frenz to arrived .. so pai seh .. cos she got our present .. but she onli come at 1045pm ... manage to catch my last bus house ..n immediately i drop die on my bed.. hehe..
woke up at 12 plus .. take a bath .. rest for a while n i have to go n work again... work at plaza from 3pm to 2am ... n first day of return .. i got to serve the VIP .. goodness.. but good too cos there is a lack of ppl .. so all the old staff have to serve 1 person to 3 tables or 2 persons to 5 tables .. all the hero.. hehe..mi .. one person to one table ..h.ehe... cos i vIP meh.. jhehehe.. but my guests are so unfriendly.. see the face of the mother.. .its alwasy black.. so scary .. scare i make any mistake.. but anyway , they did smile to me when leaving ..so i guess at least my serving is still average... dun want to say i'm good cos i think i can be better ... cos its just a warm up yesterday... hee .. have fun crappy with my old frenz.. heh haven seen seeing them for half a yr but still feel really comfortable joking and playing around with them ..heehe. working today later at 2pm .. think got to work till 2am too ..hehe.. earning as much as i could now .. hehe.. cos i have been rottin for one month liao .h.ehe..
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/25/2004 11:07:00 AM
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Argg ... suppose to sleep at 1 am .. but end up i'm still awake now... got a reason for that .. was talking to my frenz ... Really damn tired now ... a long day today .. n a long day tml n the next as well .. but i got some feeling that i want to write it down .. scare that i will forget abt it .. so thats why i'm still awake trying to write my blog now...
Went down to Jun yang performance at Esplanade today. Watched both the two performance and i think its cool.. He can sing really well man .. hehe... So proud of him .. haha ... heard a gal singing this song that she composed herself .. think its a great song. I like the lyrics a lot...its abt how sad n lonely a gal is that even the sky is crying for her.. something like that if i'm not wrong ( forgive mi for misinterpreting the song as i'm kinda blur now as i'm really very tired- try to make some sense in wat i write ..heheh..)Think its a very meaningful song. Beside this , i also like a song called " Fire" , dunno who sing it.. hehe.. its for mi to find out .. haha ... i think its a nice song too .. haha ... n n .. there is this guitar player.. he is so cute.. hehe.. so cool... cant help looking at him... n n n.. there is this guy that are damn cool too... using his body , mouth to make all slot of sound .. something like acapalla like that .hehe.. really very cool... he is very talented.. haha ... of course, jun yang did a great job too.. glad that i stay back for the second performance.. cos its like his live concert like that.. haha ...
Went down to Ying's house to help her pack her stuff for the Sunday Clake Quay flea market thingy... Will be there to help her out after my camp thingy ... going to stay there till the thing end .. ANyone interested, pls go down to take a look k ...hehe.. Ad for her.. haha ... anyway, was glad hanging out at her place.. hehe.. but then , feeling that i have been spending too much this few days.. hahha . sian.. think i better start going back to plaza to work.. at least, i can spend less .. n earn more .. hehe. win win situation .. btw, i bought myself a new pair of court shoes too .. hehe.. for my banquet.. hehe.. happy happy.. hope there will be more banquet so that i can earn more...
Went down BV mrt to look for Ron.. Suppose to go home n rest cos i was damn tired.. but got a call from Ron n he sound very bothered.. not very rite.. so i decided to call him to meet mi for a coffee.. Guess i was rite abt my guessing.. n i made a rite decision as well ... Ron is really very sad.. ( feeling glad that i'm more senitive now .. at least , i can sense the different of the tone now ..) The point being , Ron is upset abt his pro with his GF...This is the FIRST time that i meet up with this guy n he is not smiling at all.. Usually , he will be the one making a lot of joke and teasing mi here n there.. no matter how not happy he is ... he will not make it affect him .. he will enjoy himself .. and play along ... but today is different .. totally different .. the moment i see him .. i know he is not happy .. ( thats y i want to meet him too ) .. there is no smile from his face... n within seconds .. he was complaining to mi abt his gf ... was giving him advices while at the same time listen to his story and reading his diary... hmm ... Got my own comment for the gal ... n i told him .. Knowing Ron for 7 to 8 yr.. n seeing him grown .. seeing him start his high jump till wat he is now.. i have see it all ... I dun want to say that i understand him a lot .. but at least, i do understand him to a certain extent and of course know wat he is looking for .. He is one of my closest guy frenz... N i really dun want to see him sad... I'm very happy and glad that he want to share this with mi ... in fact, i think i'm the person that he share the most abt this with ...n i'm glad abt it ... Thanks him for trusting me and willing to share it with mi.. At least i know that there is someone that will look for mi to complaining abt stuff when he is upset..
He has always put High Jump as his top prority.. training hard and coping with his studies... n now ... doing n spending all his time with his gf... which his gf dun even apprepicate it at all ... After listening to his story n from wat i know him.. i can really say that he is really a damn good bf lor ... can u imagine a guy that will travel all the way down from south to north everyday just to meet his gf becos he knoe that his gf want to meet him ... Taking cab to his gf house to buy her lunch during traning break just to make her happy ... but his gf dun even apprepicate it .. Thought she say she apprepicate it .. but she is not showin any attiude to let ppl be convince that she is apprepicating it lor...Wat a bitch ....ITs either she is a spolit brag or she is Childish ... She is super demanding .. I mean.. yes i know a lot of gals is demanding and are expecting a lot .. but i dun understand that wat do u need to demand for when your bf is so good... she need to understand that Ron is not a normal sch boy that have no worries or wat so ever.. He has a lot of commitment and a dream to persue.. His High Jump .. he needs to spend lots of time to training or he will not improve or even become wrose... n for a guy that put HJ as top but still spend all his time n do watever he call to make his gf happy.. i dun understand wat more can u ask for ..
He has not been performing well in HJ .. and has been really affected by it ... i dun want to see "destroy" his career or dream cos of this lor .. he has walked so far... n its really a pity if he just go down hill cos of this stupid thing lor ... i mean i know u care abt her a lot n u are always standing in her shoes to think abt her.. but she is not worth it lor .. especially when she keep demanding for more n more ... I mean.. i dun want to affect his decision la.. i did tell him wat i feel la.. but i also give him adivce on wat he should be thinking abt .. giving him guide so that he can make his own decision ... its up to him to choose.. but i really think that the gal is not worth it at all... i feel very sad for him... talk to him for very long before he was bark to go home ... haha .. thought that i can sleep but in the end we talk on the phone for another 2 hours ....if he is not one of my best frenz .. i will have hang his phone man.. not at this point of time when i'm so tired and very have a long day tml n the next .... really exhausted.. but then .. wat can i do... i can bare to hang his phone ... not when i know that he is very sad n confused.. n need a listening ear the most...
i'm glad that he listening to my advice and give himself a break to think thing through... clam down for a while cos things have been processing too fast... really feel that i talk lots of sense to him ... n in turn to myself too... just hope that he will be happier and watever his decision is. .. and wat is the outcome ... i will always be there to support him n be a good listening ear... thats something i can promise... just hope that this gal can learn to apprepicate him a little ...and grow up ... dun let such a good guy walk away and regret .. .that will be the stupidest thing to do lor....
goodness.. i onli got 3 hours to sleep ...but wat to do.. for the sake of my frenz.. i'm scarificing my sleep .. just hope that he will be happy .... n make the right decision ...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/22/2004 02:24:00 AM
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have been some time since i update my blog . Have been busying watching one korean drama called 'love letter' ..hehe.. its not the jap one... but its equally nice n touching...
went out with my jc gang to celebrate Jane birthday on friday. Have quite a lot of fun cos its really been some time since i meet up with them.. n really happy to see all of them . HAve our dinner at marina bay . Though i hate that place a lot, cos i dun like to bbq, i still went down n have a few bite.. hehe ... when down to Cine to take photo.. yes .. go down cine just to take photo.. have a lot of candid shots.. so fun .. suddenly feel like buying a dig cam..heheh... so now i muz save up.. hehe..Went to swenden n bought jane a simple birthday cake .. then went n watch a mid night show.. this is the second time i'm watching 50 first date. but still i enjoy it .. cos i really like that show a lot . ..hehe..
On Saturday, went down to zhong ming house again to play mahjong , took a bus down this time .. n 75 took a long long route down man ... its like i'm travelling around Singapore ... went down to sheryl birthday at night .... hmm.. meet up with my another group of jc frenz ..hehe.. have a nice talk with them.. crapping around.... through the conversation .. i suddenly feel that i'm very narrow minded...( though i knew that earlier).. i realised that there are a lot of things i need to think deeper ... n think widen ... thats y , i have been thinking a lot recently ...abt a lot of stuff ....
Meet up with juv, terence n huili on sunday , n stay over at juv place along with terence.. haha .. have fun walking around geylang at night.. hehe.. n doing excerise ..hehe.. its really kinda fun .. .hehe..
went down to the camp breifing today.. its so boring .. heh.e. just hope that the trial camp will be more fun ..hehe..think i'm going to look for some sale job .. if i still cannot get an office job... at least , i need to earn enough to buy a dig cam..h.eheh... my short term goal for the moment .. trying to change my gallery n upload some photo... took a lot of time to do it ... m still doing it now. . .but since i got nothing to do..i really dun mind ..hehe.. cant wait to get a dig cam.. hehe .. think i will be playing with it everyday.. .he.he.. got back my result today.. not good .. ok la .. average.. at least , i achieve my goals, though i'm greedy to get a better one. guess i should be satified with it .. at least, its the kind of mark i should be getting given my poor performance during exam..hehe...
school starting in 2 months time .. still quite some time from now.. but i really getting a bit worried cos i will be yr 3 when sem starts... goodness.. getting older.. hope to go for a graduation tour then..hehe.. if i can find kakis to go..h.e.he.
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/19/2004 01:40:00 AM
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know i just update yesterday.. but i'm so excited ( basically bored) so i want to update again .. hahah ...
went down to rora place for lunch with kat .. have a sushi buffet , but we ate extremely little for a buffet... guess we are just too used to the food there.. no point eating a lot .. shhaha .... anyway, we did eat the amount we spend.. or she spend .. haha .. cos its on her.. haha ... have some fun eating .. but guess kat over ate... though i really think she eat a bit too little .. but guess she haven been eating "so much" so think she is suffering from indigestion ..hehehe... thats make her very restless... in fact, not her usual self actually ... we went for a short shopping trip cos i need to get to sentosa by 4pm ... suppose to help her look for a jean .. but ended up i bought a demini skirt... haha .... feeling a bit bad .. cos i'm suppose to accompany her.. but i onli have like 10 min to 20 min to shop .. so how to shop .. by the time i bought my skirt .. i'm actually late ...
reach sentosa underwater world at 430pm (30 min late) , cos i was waiting for the shuttle bus to depart and waiting for the blue line bus tooo .... lucky i dun have to queue up to buy my admission ticket.. thats the good thing abt being the Islander .. haha ... anyway, i see so many ppl going to sentosa.. envy .. i haven been going there for like very long liao ... hehe.. hope i can go there soon (*hint* -- anyone interested to go sentosa) ...hhehee... went for my interview... actually i onli go down for fun, cos its like i got nothing to do , and it sound fun , so i just go down lor .. in the end , i got selected ..hehe.. she ask mi some questions and i answered.. bascially i think i fit in everything they looking for lor... so when they ask mi got any questions, i really dunno wat to ask . she has gave mi a clear intro abt wat is our job scope and everything.. so there is really nothing for mi to ask ... its kinda odd thats suddenly the room become very quiet.. hehe .. a bit uncomfortable.. maybe its becos i have been going out .. a bit dunno how to talk to ppl liao... hope thats not the case man .. cos in the camp , i will need to talk to everyone ..sian ... hehe..anyway, when she say i can go for the briefing on tuesday , i was like .. err.. wait , i see whether i free anot .. haha .. then when i say i free.. she was like .. err ok.. so we will see ya then ... just think its a bit weird.. haha ...so its just like that , then i'm confirm to be in the team .. just think its a bit weird... hahah ... anyway, was happy cos its like 110bucks per camp with 100 bucks bouns every 4 camps... but there will onli be 2 camp facilitators per camp .. so i got to be very independent .. shit . .. got to train on that man ..a hahah .. just hope that it will be fun ... haha .. but at least , i finally got a job ( part -time though).. just hope there will be lots of camp for mi so that i can earn more .. but still , i'm still hoping for a full -time job .. still waiting for ppl to call mi .. damn it .. think i wun be able to get any full-time job liao .. so late liao.. who will need a 2 months temp... anyway, lets hope for the best.. muz be optimistic...hhehe..then will be happier.. haha ..
after the interview , i took the opportunity to visit the underwater world.. since i already went in free, shouldnt waste my trip down .. plus , i got nothing to do .. hehe.. so decide to walk in to visit the fishes.. hehe.. first , i went to the 'touch pool' . if u remember, underwater world has this pool of fishes and star fish where u can touch n feel the fish with ur own hands.. glad that i wasnt wearing a long sleeve shirt ( in fact , i dun really have one ) , i put my hand in and grab the star fish.. hehe.. immediately , a lot of ppl , young and old, start to crowd around mi .. they look so excited .. hehe.. n the kids even thought that i'm the staff there.. they keep asking mi , can i touch , can i hold .. err.. can i put my hand in.. haha ... i thought, its a chance for mi to start training for my facilitator job... hehe.. so i just grab the star fish and let the kids touch ... n even help them to catch other fishes.. hehe.. so fun ... realised that more n more ppl crowd around mi .. i decided to proceed on to the exhibition ground... see the cuttlefishes, the jelly fish, the sea horse etc... read a bit of the explanation .. just in case i have to read it sooner or later...hehe.then i proceed to the tunnel.... hehe.. its a bit crowded due to the tour there... but still i enjoy myself.. the fishes.. is damn BIG... the phomfet... wow ... i think u can eat it for a few days... its really very big ... from my naked eye la ... everything seem so so big ... i was like , is it that the mirror try to make the fishes look bigger or is it the other way round... get a bit confused there..
got a new hair cut too ... trim my hair basically cos the weather is just too unbearable... n my hair is just too thick ... so i got so uncomfortable... haha .. n i think its very ugly as well ..hehe.. so out of the blue , i just go n trim my hair.. looking better i think .. haha ...
went for a short jog just now ... its really a short one... running really slowly cos i'm a bit tired. actually thought of not running .. but thinking of the buffet i ate n going for steamboat tml.. i guess i will be better off running... burn off some fat ..ehhehe... guess , i didnt run as slow as i think ... average i can say.. hehe.. getting used to it liao... thought getting a bit sick of it .. haha ... but its really better running .. cos my eyes are feeling better now.. hehe...
while i was running just now, i heard something from 933fm..its something like this " if u r the sun, u shouldnt envy the moon from reflecting the beautiful light. if u r the moon, u should do ur best in reflecting the light produce by the sun. If u r the 'xing' star, u shouldnt jealous the steadlity of 'heng' star...." basically , its trying to tell us that ,we should try our best to do our part well. shouldnt envy wat others are, instead , be happy abt wat u r , and do the best ... hehe... optimistic thinking ...hehe.. but i like it ..hehe. U r wat u are... n u should be proud of that ...cos there is onli one U in the world... so be happy abt it ...hehe
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/13/2004 08:42:00 PM
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hmmm... am intending to update my blog where i realised that blogger actually change its "design" to update our blog..hehe..more refreshed .. more interesting... still trying to figure out what is the use of profile in the blogger ... hehe.. for who to see .. haha .. anyway, will be playing with it later after i update my blog.. hehe...since i'm so bored and got nothing to do ...hehe
watssup with mi recently ? basically , i'm just rotting at home ... u can literally see a spider web building over mi .. hahaha.. but i'm really really very very bored... no job , no outing .. nothing.. n the worst thing is my mum want mi to stay at home.. I really dun understand, y does she have to restrict my action when she know i got nothing to do at home .. she rather see mi walking around at home doing nothing , then to let mi go out ... wat the F*** .. n when i'm at home , she will bound to find fault within mi.. n scold mi ... like she dun want to see mi.. arggg... so bascially , i'm just like a zombie at home .. cannot talk , cannot go anywhere... arggg.. i'm getting crazy...n with the fact that i dun have a job.. i cannot go out everyday cos soon i will be broke .. wats wrost, the light bulb in my room is spoilt , and there seem no way to fix it unless u call the expert (which my mum says she will call since few days again , n the "expert" haven seen to arrive) ... so basically, at night, if i'm online, i'm at an environment where there aint any light... sian ... n now, my eyes got so irritated that i keep rubbing it .. just realised that my eyes are a bit swollen, god damn it ... now , i cannot even rub my eyes. shit... n my eyes are so so itcy ... just hope that it will get better if i dun rub it anymore.. .before anyone start scolding mi ..hehe.
just went out for another mahjong game on monday night... n n .. i won 49 bucks.. one of the highest won so far ... or onli won so far.. haha ...ok la.. not too bad.. but i muz admit that i was damn lucky .. hahah ... anyway, meet up with my best guy frenz "finally" after "avoiding" him for some time.. ahaha .. not really avoiding him.. but just dun want to see him .. cos he so zong se qing you ... haha .. long story... anyway, was great to see him .. cos ,as usual , we enjoy suaning each other and making fun of each other... heard his story ... and have a nice chat with him too .. haha ... he is definitely one of the guys i will really enjoy mixing with everytime.. haha ...
now, i'm home alone... cos my brother went for RESERVE... horray....hahah .. very bad i know.. but now.. i got everything to myself .. and no one to stop mi from using com every night.. haha ... happy happy ... and less one more person to nag at mi everyday.. haha..
hmmm.. going to sentosa later for a camp facilitator job interview... its a project based one .. anyway, its additional earning for mi i guess.. hehe n n... going to meet kat later for lunch .. hehe .. n shop a bit .. haha ... thought of buying some stuff.. hhaha ....good to have some fresh air too ... if not , i will really be bored to death .. haha ... was thinking should i go genting on monday.. but cant seem to find a company to go with mi .. sad .. think i should just still in singapore ... in case there is a job for mi... hoping.. hehe...heh.... have a nice chat with sigit just now.. so glad that he still remember mi .. haven been chatting with him for ages...certainly enjoy chatting with him .. hheehe ....
n n ... before i forgot .. today is HUILI's birthday.. Happy birthday gal... hope u enjoy ur day man.. hehe... stay pretty always.. tml going to celebrate jane's birthday ... n sze lay and sheryl ... goodness .. so many ppl birthday at may ... going to break liao...hehe.he... anyway, happy birthday to everyone .. .heheh....
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/12/2004 10:51:00 PM
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have a long long long long rest today . Wake up at 3 plus in the afternoon ... Went out with my buddy yesterday for supper. Where else can we go man . Swenden yesterday is damn crowded. n their menu is so limited.. cos they want to provide the best service within the shortest time to their overwhelming crowd during mother's day . So for the past few days , they have been serving the same limited menu man.. So boring ... Anyway, we make our order and as usual , make a fool out of ourselves by changing seat , disturbing the waitress and waiter.. hheh. Think sweden gonna to ban us soon...heheh..but thats wat i like abt us . acting the way we are and being wat we are . Showing our true character to everyone and dun care abt wat others view us as.... Thats why i love her so much ... hehe... cos we never hide our feeling around..eheh... Thats really the best thing one can get after a long day man ..hehe.. hanging with ppl that u enjoy so much no matter when .. hee... i cant wait to move out man.. .heh.e.. n irritated them man ... oh oh .. before i forget ..
She is having a booth at the Clake Quay flea market on 23rd May from 9 to 5pm . Ladies who are interested in nail art, hair cliping , ladies wear and accessories .. pls go down to take a look k ..hehe
Have a long rest and now feeling more refreshed... got to really start looking for a job.. i dun want to stay at home the whole months doing nothing man.. i will either be bored to death or irritated to death man ..hehe... n n.. earning some money so that i can go for a holi ..hehe. going oversea.. where n when? i dunno .. just thought that i might be going oversea onli ..hehe.. n hmm.. not forgetting that i might be going for a chalet again with my buddy. .hehe... for fun ...hehe....
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/09/2004 06:59:00 PM
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Its suppose to be a good day for mi .. but its not good at all... Why aint mi happy ... I haven been home for like 3 days as i went for a chalet and was busying with my Chinese Society event till now. Was really stressed and sleepy... I ran abt everywhere today in school . Was doing this n that n this n that... glad that i have my frenz with mi to help mi with various stuff . WAs pretty pissed off at one moment where i realised that i was the onli one busying while the other are resting. Maybe becos i'm stressed up that why i couldnt take this nonsense at this time .... i walked off to buy something n refused to talk after i return ... I'm glad that those that come down to help mi do all they can to help and do the best for everything... if not of them , my event might not be able to run so smoothly... Thanks For whoever that help mi out man .... I really appreciate that ...
And now i'm home, i cant even have a peace place to rest... the last thing i want is to quarrel with anyone... n there she goes again... its always like that .. she is always like that ... i dun know wat happen and i dun think i did anything wrong ... but i realised that no matter wat i did recently , she is unhappy with every single thing... she is always finding fault with the things i do .. N talking abt why my bf will dump mi ... i break off with him for a reason. N the feeling is quite neutral , its not becos of anyone ...or even though it might be ... its my life ... I believe i got a choice to choose wat i want to do and who i want to be.. Afterall, i'm the person living my own life, i dun want to end up regretting my life ....if u think that ur life is meserable with us around, u can jointly well go do what u like as well .. No one is stopping u .... or should i say , everyone is asking u to do so, but its just that u refuse ... so why complain... why go around and tell everyone how bad i am ... how useless i am ...I'm not useless. I'm playful, i admit. But i work as well ... its not like i spend everyday playing ...i work and play ... work hard ,play hard.. Though in the end , i exhaust myself .. but at least, i 'm living a life that i choose to live. So please dun come n interfer with mine....If u really think i'm a bad girl ... then go ahead ...cos that show how much u know mi ....I know u care... But its not the way to show care ... its not the way to show how much u love mi but tieing mi down ... cos it will never work ...
Still, i enjoyed myself for the past few days.. if its possible , i just hope that i could stay there for a longer period... the place is great with the pool rite in front where i can just swim whenever i want to....we eat, swim , cook, etc.... thought there is a purpose for us to be there... i'm basically taking it as a time to have a break in my busy life ... I make a couple of new frenz. got a lot of unneccessary attention for no reason... n got myself more confused and upset...one of my frenz say that i have lose myself by blindly following ....maybe you are rite... cos i have been very affected by watever he says, writes n does...of course i know wat i'm doing and have a plan in mind of how i want to due with it . but guess wat i need is a listening ear . A person to talk to .. a person to share my feeling with cos i dun want to express it out to someone... i just need to pour out everything cos i dun like to keep it to myself... cos i will feel terrible... i know and realised that i'm blessed cos everyone care for mi and just want to make sure that i'm happy .. i know u all care and are feeling unfair for mi ... of course getting irritated when i just refuse to get myself out of the shit that i am in ... sorry if i happen to disappoint anyone... cos i think i am ...but thanks for staying by my side .... Things have been getting more complicated... at least thats what i felt ... so guess i should learn to keep things to myself and stop sharing it with others so that i will not disappoint others further... if anyone want to know wat happen to mi ... they can jointly well read my blog ...
there are happy memories...maybe cos i'm greedy , thats y , i'm not satifisy with wat i have... i want more.... really wanted more ... maybe that y i'm upset ... but wat can i get ... there is nothing to be expect... Good thing , memories have been flowing through my mind once and again. with it ,comes along a thinking that why am i doing so much. will anybody actually appreciate wat i have done . I know i'm not the onli one thAT have done alot ... but i believe i'm one of them that have did my best to help.... or to make the day a wonderful one....maybe u did appreciate it ... but guess i didnt feel it .... or i'm just being greedy...maybe its a moody swing... which i hope it is ... guess i;m just not as important as i seem to be ... anyway, wat am i to u man... i;m really tired ... really tired .... loving a person is really tiring that why there are ppl who rather choose to be love , then to love... there are a lot of things that i want to say , but words just didnt come out of my mouth... or maybe i just dun have a chance to....just there are still a lot of things that i need to slot out ..i need more time to think through things ... or maybe , i need some peace .... a place that i will feel loved...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/08/2004 09:17:00 PM
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I'm so so so so tired....but yet, i'm so so so so excited.. hehe.. have a really busy day yesterday. Run through my cs JHX event which will be held this coming sat... goodnesss.. hope everything will run smoothly ... Its the first time i'm having a PD post... n the next is the upcoming FOC for my CS ... goodness... very nervous abt that , n i cant stop thinking abt it ...
Today, i'm busying packing up my bag and at the same time doing my CCA stuffs ... I;m going chalet tml.. hehe... so so excited... going to go swim, jacuzzi ... cycling .. etc etc... everything... hehe.. something to get away from my cca stuff before the actual event.. though i feel a bit bad abt leaving the stuff behind to go for a break .. but i think i desire it as well ...hehe.. but i will be really exhausted man ... n my 2 star is just the coming mon to wed... goodness... hope that my body can take it man ..h.ehe..
anyway, have been chatting with one of my frenz recently ... enjoying the company .. and really happy to chat with him .. hehe..think i can just chat non-stop with him n forgotten to do my work man ...hehe..
Anyway , wun be online for quite a while cos of my packed schedule.. but i really cannot wait of all these to happen .... dun miss mi k ..hhehe. :P
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/06/2004 02:24:00 AM
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goodness.... regret eating something damn oily for breakfast today.. Ended up that i have to go non-stop to the toliet ... damn it .... dunno wat haapen to mi .. have been going toliet everytime i finished eating... thinking i'm really getting old... my stomach can no longer hold oily food. .. hahah .. anyway, have a really really busy day .. work for the whole day in my office and at the same time doing my cca stuff ... u can typically see a gal holding two phones on her hands and talking on both side man ... lucky my boss wasnt looking at mi .. if not , she will definitely scold mi ..hehe... Brought my magazine down to read , in the end , i dun even have any time to touch the magazine man ... i'm so so stressed ....
Went for a run just now.. finally running again after one week .. haha .. feeling really good cos i really miss running .. especially when i;m putting on weight now .. n n ... cos ying just bought a really really nice dress for mi ( i love it ... its a blue ,flowery dress ).. so in order to prevent myself from putting on some more weight... i got to run more ... hehe... have a good run today , n something to keep mi away from my cca stuff for a while ... now .. after i finish this , i got to bury myself to my cca stuff again... really hope to go to the chalet soon.. haha ...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/03/2004 09:40:00 PM
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have been going out everyday. Either playing mahjong , busy with my cca stuff or i will be out shopping with my frenz.. haven been staying home except when i;m having tuition ... Goodness.. i haven been excerising cos i;m just too tired to .... think i'm getting fat n putting on weight.. how...... argggg.. so irritating... think i can onli control on my meal for the time being .. cos i wun be free till 8th may.. hope the kayaking lesson on the 10 th to 12th will allow mi to cut down some fat ... haha ...so sian ... feeling so tired... n till now.. i haven got a job ...sian sian sian .... hope i will be getting calls on monday man .. but i wun be free till 12 ... unless i skip my kayaking course ... which i might if i got a job ... hmmm... will see how.. anyway, i still need to work for my swatch on monday.. so have to settle that first...
got a lot of things in my mind.. wanted to say them out but i just dunno how to ...its just so close but yet so far ....i'm so confused ... think i need more time to think abt it ....i guess there is just something missing....
posted by Trish daydreaming at 5/02/2004 12:21:00 AM
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