~! A World of Love !
Live to Love, Love to Live ~
i got a dear dear now n i love my dear dear n my dear dear love mi too ... hahaha ... been talking to my dear dear everyday n meeting him almost everyday .... i like the feeling of being care n taken care of .... as well as taking care of ppl .... the feeling of able to lean on someone shoulder so peacefully is so good....
a lot of ppl who knoe that i got a bf was all shocked as they feel that its a bit fast n sudden ... though mi n my dear dear feel the same way too , we still want to be together ....... its so amazing abt how both of us feel ... we both feel that though we are onli together for a short while .. it seem like we are together for yrs ....
though i have known my dear dear for quite sometime, i actually never thought that we will be together now as he has went missing for some times.. n i never thought that our paths will cross.... everything start from a simple sms n things have happened so fast that i didnt realised that its onli a few days that have passed.... but i never regret anything .... in fact , i'm happy .... happy that he has found mi back n make our paths cross....happy to have him around ...... i also dun understand y i will let such thing happen so fast .......its like a few week ago i just told myself that i wun want to get into a relationship yet ... n now , i'm in one ....but i'm happy to be in one ... i cant explain y ... but i guess, its the feeling that i have for him ....something in my heart just tell mi that i cant miss out this guy or not i might regret ...
some ppl will have tell mi , i'm giving up something that i have been waiting for to take up this relationship ... some ppl will tell mi that it might not be worth it as i have waited for so long n i have just see a light but i choose to give up ..some ppl have said that they will be happier if i'm with ... but all this is not important to mi anymore ... in fact, i'm glad that i make this choice ...some times some ppl are just not meant to be together .... being frenZ forever might be a better choice too ... when the period of being together have passed , it has passed .. when u miss it ... it will never come back again .. or most of the time , it wun .... so wat is the point of waiting when u know that someone so good is coming into ur life ...... i definitely dun want to be the person that is so stubborn that i will miss out someone so good ...i definitely dun want to miss out this period of being together again... i have miss out once ... n i wun make the same mistake .....
a few months ago when i decided to give up , i told myself ...if i'm really going to get a bf , he muz be someone that i know for very long but not very close.... cos i need someone who know mi n like mi for what i'm ... n i believe that the new frenz that i have wun be able to understand mi that well as old frenz...n i sort of hope that he will be from one of my clip of frenz who i enjoy hanging out with ...n not forgetting the cateria i have for my bf......n most importantly , someone who understand mi n can touched my heart as deep as someone else have touched mi ...someone who can make mi think of him n onli him when i'm with him ....n i can proudly tell all of u this .... I HAVE FOUND THAT PERSON........ n i wun let him go that easily n n ... i'm really really happy with him .....n this is wat i really feel now ... maybe in future , i might be saying something else ... but this is how i feel now ...
i really like my dear dear ....like his understanding ... like to talk to him abt anything ...i believe that in a relationship, communication , forgive n forget are very important ....n i like communicating with him ... i like to talk to him .... i just hope that we will always be that franks in our conversation ... hiding nothing from each other n speak onli the truth.. i'm loving my dear dear more n more everyday ...n i know he feels the same too...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 12/28/2004 10:35:00 PM
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today is "tong zhi"... n i just have my tang yuan at my ah ma( grandma) house ... heheh...actually suppose to go down to help make the tang yuan.. but went down too late , so in the end, i onli can eat the tang yuan ....hehe.. really miss the time making tang yuan and eating the self made one .... nowadays mum is too busy/lazy to make tang yuan liao ... hehe....
realised that i'm one of the few grand childs that haven been visiting my grandma for ages ( though we live on the same blk ).....the onli few time while i actually bother to go down to visit her was during CNY... i always think... when i got a bf , i definitely got to bring him down to meet my grandma...my grandma is old .. really old .. think she is 90 something if i'm not wrong.....n i love her a lot .... but i'm always so busy going out , studying n working that i never really have the energy ( or lazy) to go visit her ...
just now when i go down to see her, the eyes that she has when she saw mi was like " finally got to see you liao" ... making mi feel so guilty ... hmm... but that the pro with mi .. i never like to stay at home , thats y , i'm always going home late ... n when i go home late, i will go straight home.... so that y i never visit her ... sad sad ...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 12/21/2004 01:07:00 PM
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been working at whitesand for one week liao ... recently have been seeing a lot of old frenZ.... frenz that i usually dun contract are all contacting mi now ...hehe... so happy to meet up with them n chat abt life .... hahah .
of course i have met a couple of new frenz too ... those from my roadshow .... most of them are 17 yrs old .. so young rite .. n all of them say that i'm 16yrs old.. haha .so happy ... this roadshow is so so different from the pervious one that i work 6 mths ago .... this time .. the ppl is so so much friendly... n they dun really care that much abt sale ... the perivous time is so horrible ... everyday , wat everyone think of is sale .. to close more sales.. n ppl are so aggressive.. n i so so dun like it though my sale is good ..... at first i thought of not working when my boss call mi too , cos its long hr , low pay n stressful n boring .... the comission is so so little onli ... n i really thought of going for a holi ... ( good thing is i did work , cos no money to go holi too ..hehe.) .though my sale this time round is not good compared to the perivous one .. but i dun really care cos the commission is little anyway....but this time , i did have more fun ... i will still go out n watch movie after work .. go down look for my frenz etc .. n i got 2 off days too ..hehe.. n the most impt thing is that i not thinking abt sale sale sale n sale this time round...hehe.. really meet couple of very nice frenz... n getting really close to them ... everytime i will joke around n forgot to serve the customer.. haha ... who cares ... think will be going to ktv with them after the roadshow .. surely will miss them after the roadshow one ..hehe..
if not of these ppl .. i will be so so so bored of the roadshow liao... 2 weeks ... 2 weeks of working non-stop ... cant even go swim in the morning cos everyday i got to leave house at 10 n onli reach home at 1030 to 11 ... was sick for the first few days... which i really hope to go swimming but i cant ... n after that i haven been sleeping well cos i keep going out till late after work ..hehe.. now n so so tired. ..
going to buy a new phone on wed ... dun care .. no matter wat i will buy a new phone .. my starhub line onli expire next yr march .. but i want to upgrade my singtel now so that i can buy the phone at a cheaper price ...n i onli want to have one phone now ... but if i wait till march, i may not have a good price since its the xmas season now. .. hmm..will see how la .. but most likely i will buy lor .. the most is i pay for more for the next 3 months lor .. hhehe... ..
so so hope the roadshow will be over soon... hmm.. if over , then a few more days will be xmas liao .. hehe..n n .. i cant wait for xmas.. hahaha ...hmm... exam result will be out on the 24th 3pm... so sian ... pray hard that i do well for my papers... cos i really put in a lot of effort... hhehe...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 12/12/2004 10:46:00 PM
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From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background,& that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him. Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply,but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"
As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.
After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family,I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married.
So before he leave,they got engaged.The girl went out to the working society,whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.
One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......
The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her.Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone.Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang.
She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply,and countless of phone calls,.. all the girl could do,besides crying, is still crying....
The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day,her friend came & told her that he's back.She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her.
He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger.The girl finally smiled.
posted by Trish daydreaming at 12/12/2004 10:37:00 PM
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surfing the net for the past few hr trying to look for a good design for my blog .. but cant seem to find any..guess i wun be changing the design afterall as i like this design a lot ... there is no better design around... hehe...
feeling really down recently ... cant seem to have the zest to do anything ... just feel like being alone .. all alone n do nothing .... actually i was hoping to see someone...to talk to him or simply to be with him ... since its not a possible choice cos he isnt free , i will just have to be alone.... thinking a lot recently ...abt all the thing that have happened ...cant sleep well for the past few days ... but i'm feeling better now ... i know wat i need to do now .. whenever such things happen or similar things happen i will just start thinking n get upsad n dunno wat to do.. .wasting my time n thinking n thinking without doing anything ... n i will always regret after that for not doing wat i want to do .....its always the case for mi ... cos i think too much... i will concern abt other people involved it this too much that i'm afraid that wat i will do will hurt another person ....n of course afraid that i will get hurt too ... but wat is there for mi to be afraid of really ... i onli live once... n i have had too much regret in my life that i dun wish to regret anymore ...i will rather choose to give it a try n the most get hurt than i dun try n regret for my life forever .... especially when its someone so important to mi ... n someone that i dun want to lose in my life ... i had thought of letting go a lot of times.... really a lot of times ... but now , since i got the answer that i always want to hear ... do i still want to let go ... NO ... NO WAY .... i wun ... for all these yrs, i have been waiting for these words.. these words to let mi know that i wasnt thinking too much n wat i'm thinking n feeling is true ... its real... though it might be a little too late n your feeling is gone since it has been so long liao ... but i will still want to give it a try ... at least , i wun want myself to have any regret in my life again ...
i know u have made up ur mind ... i have been thinking really a lot this few days ... i want u to be happy too..n i dun want anyone to get hurt too... especially when i know someone needed u more than i do... but u are also that important to mi that i do want to let go ... i know u wanted mi to find someone else n be happy n live happily. .. but u are the only one i want in my life now... i would have settle for someone else if i want ... but i cant .. cos i dun want ... cos i only want u ...maybe 10 yrs down the road , i will really fall for someone else n get married n have kids ... but i know i will definity regret if i just let go now ... maybe i couldnt even live till then ... i know there is a lot of things that u know but i dun ... i'm not trying to change anything ... n i know u dun want to hurt mi too .. even if u dun love mi .. its okie ... but i just want u to know that i do ... love is not something that i can control... n yes ... when the moment is gone, its gone ..but for me .. the moment is not gone yet ... cos if it has gone, i wun be feeling this heart ache now ... i wun want to be with anyone else now ... so dun stop mi from loving u ... at least , make mi have no regret in my life from now on ...
but all n all ... i want u to be happy too ... thats the most important thing.. for u to be happy ...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 12/05/2004 01:37:00 PM
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tml is my last paper ... n guess wat i did the whole day today..... If u think that i do nothing but stoning .. then ..... WRONG ....... i clean my room for the whole day !!!! hehe ..suppose to be studying .but i finish revising everything yesterday liao... n since i wun be at home till fri night n will be quite busy till mon ... so decided to do wat i always wanted to do ...That is ... TO CLEAN MY BLOODY ROOM... hehehe ..... Now my room look so so so so much neater... hehe.. clear a lot of my notes ... n clean my study table which can never be used to study as its too messy .. now i can study with my study table ..hehe... so happy .. so satisfied. .. hehe... n now ..there is one more won bin photo up on my wall .. total no of won bin poster= 5 and one jay chou poster.. hhahaha .... hmmm... now i onli left my wardrobe.. need to clear a lot of my unwanted shirt so that i know wat to wear next time .. hehe.. hmmm.. maybe i should do it on mon when i'm more free ...
at least i feel so so much better now.. the weather today is damn good... thinking of going to swim .. but in the end , i was just too lazy to get out of my house ..hehe.. but luckily i did tidy my room .. if not i will feel so guilty... hehe... hmmm..now , i'm going to do some more paper ... then go for my dinner .. n watch singapore idol final showdown .hehe.. then i should prepare my stuff for tml. .hehe... cant wait for tml...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 12/01/2004 04:44:00 PM
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