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Waking up so early waiting for my frenz to pick me up... cant wait for the trip as my new year haven been any good so far except a dinner at ying's house...Tell u the truth, i onli slept for 3 hrs.. not because i'm excited, but becos i was talking to my best frenz on phone since 3am... haha.. was thinking to call them up to eat breakfast with me... haha... Crazy rite... but then , she will be the first person to send me off..
How could i thanks her, my sis ... she is definitely the person that know me the best... 8 yrs of friendship ... we have been through thick and thin and build a strong bond between us that we will definitely put each other in the front line when deciding stuff... When she cries, i cries.. When i cries, she cires... All we want are to see each other living a happy life...
I will be happy, gal!!! i Promise....I'm so so glad to have u with mi .... Juv, u too ... hhe
Anyway, will update my blog again when i come back ... take care all my frenz... Enjoy ur weekend ...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/23/2004 05:39:00 AM
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Didnt realise that wat i have done has actually hurt someone else... Knowing that i make a promise but i didnt manage to keep it ... Knowing that he will be disappointed , but i still didnt turn up... He has a right to be angry with me. And beside the "magic word", i really dunno wat i can say...
I has always told myself that no matter wat mood u are in , dun let ur mood affect others. But realised that i'm always letting my mood affecting others... Others are always being hurt innocently by me... Of course, its my fault.. If i know that i cant keep the promise , i shouldnt have made it ... Why m i always like that...Feeling bad abt it when it had happened instead of stopping it for happening... Why do i have to be so stubborn n not just letting go my trouble so that everyone will not have to worry for me...
I have grown up , but in the eyes of others, there are always treating me like a child cos i behave like one... Everyone are giving in to me, making me happy but wat have i actually do for them ... beside making a fool out of myself and laughing non-stop everytime .. i'm basically a spoilt child... A child that seek for attention are refused to give any to others...
Seeing my frenz's blog this morning, i really feel very guilty ... Guilty that i actually put him down into the "bad mood" zone with me... Though i tried to convert a msg across to him , he dun seem to get it .. Maybe i should have tell him the truth ... i should have just called him and explain myself ... Why didnt i ??? Thats my mistake again ... Sms him just now to explain myself. Though he said its over and call mi to forget abt it , i know he is still angry ... n i deserve it ...but i dun mean it ... I really dun mean it ...
Hope that wat i has done didnt spoil our friendship .. Cos i will blame myself even more abt it ...
The problem that lies within me is that i cant let go.. Cant let things out ... I will keep blaming myself to the extent that i wun dare to call him again ... I know he is not so Petty , but its just me... Maybe i should just let go... instead of keeping everything to myself ... there are so many things that are hiding within me that i thought could let go .. till specially on certian days ... be it on festive seasons or important occassion ..it will just flash back into my mind again... N its hurts... It really hurt.... Things that i dun wish to happen has happened... N i didnt stop it from happening....
Feeling very bad now about wat i have done, just hope that he wun be too upset about my action... Dun be disappointed about me k , you are a frenz that i always treasure ... I know you wun bother if u didnt consider me as your frenz .. Cos u treasure our friendship too , thats y u r so pissed... Thats y , i feeling worst now... I really want to apologise abt it ...
Resting at home yesterday has really made me feel better ... body has some how recovered but my knee is still hurting... maybe cos i swim too much.... Its chinese new year , but i dun feel the festive mood at all... not at all.... my mum is sleeping while my father and brother are watching tv.. we are staying at home doing nothing.. so unusual ... N i'm still down with this mood swingy thing.. jus hope i wun unintentionally hurt another person...
Who actually know me??? Who can actually feel how i'm feeling now...I'm trying to be strong, but i'm hurt and upset.... but who actually can feel the deepest feeling that i have?? Maybe there wun be anyone .. cos i'm always keeping a lot of things to myself and refused to admit that i haven let go...
I'm sorry... TO all..
posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/22/2004 01:50:00 PM
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Time: 2344, 21 Jan 2004.
In 15 min time, it will be a New year for all the Chinese. Muz be surprised that i'm actually at home. Was supposed to go out with my frenz , but since he went down first, i became to feel lazy to go anywhere.. hehe... Sorry for flying kite, Yiwei. Part of the reason is also becos i suddenly feel very sick and tired that i cannot seem to go anywhere... maybe is my mood swing again. hehe .. but i'm really feeling a bit sick now. Wat a time to fall sick man ... goodness..
As i have nothing to do and i dun want to go anywhere, i began looking at my old entries in my blog...Was reading everything and thinking abt stuffs..
Didnt have a reunion dinner today cos my parents were quarrelling .. think it really spoil my mood.. anyway, i start to pack up for my trip .. definitely will be an enjoyable one... but still i'm hoping for something else ...
A quiet Chinese New year eve for me... but dunno y , i suddenly jus want to be alone... not being disturb ... think i'm becoming more like him ... he really have an impact on my life... for good n for bad.......
Aint in the right mood to talk now.. anyway, hope everyone have a good day tml ... N May god bless you .
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posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/21/2004 11:56:00 PM
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Yesterday was a very busy day for me... Err to be exact, i'm really pretty busy recently, or especially this sem .. or always .. haha .. anyway, though i have cleared all my minutes , i was assigned more works as well ... Its no one to be blamed as everyone in the Com is as busy as i am .. but cos its my website, i should be given the right to complain on my workload rite... hahah... As the CS website has not be uploaded yet , there are a lot of stuffs we need to do to make sure that everything is uploaded asap .. To gather the info is the worst. .. cos i have to d/l n u/l and send emails here n there... the worst thing is i have a very long day yesterday , from 800 to 2100 .. yes .. u are not wrong.. i was in school till 2100 or 2200 cos i need to have my dinner after a long long day.. when home, m really tired, but still have to come online and do my work ... cos its really an urgent matter and i think i have the responsiblity to get it done asap ...so with the constant Msn coming in to discuss more CS issue, i took a rather long time to try to finish u/ling the stuff.. Beside that, i still have to d/l my tutorial for IVLE which i'm also suppose to do it this week or early next week .. where got time ... goodness.. think i will have to do my hw on 22/1 ... hjhhaha .. thats CNY for ur info .. anyway, cos i cant finish wat i'm suppose to do yesterday and since i have a lect at 10 and will be busy all the way till 6pm , n as i was too tired yesterday after struggling till 3am .. i has to do it now.. good thing is i manage to u/l everything now .. more photo will be coming in as well .. Now i just need to clear my reading a bit tonight and read through my tutorial... then i will be off for holi.. haha
Everyone .. Today is CNY eve.. Do go out n look at the fire cracker or fire work k ... hahaha ... I wish everyone a proposous new year...
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Memories start flowing into my mind. Everything that has happened, everything that we experience are constantly appearing in my mind... Those memories are happy , all happy ... I dun blame anyone, not even myself , as i knows, sometime, something cannot be changed, and some people are still going to be the same. Its not about the liking that i have, its about the way i want my life to be.. I know i can be much happier if thing will to be slightly better... but i refused to give in, my stubborn character in me are stopping me from being so ... I dun want to be a weak little gal that have to follow instruction or to do as wat ppl want . I want to be me.... A gal that has a right to be sad , happy , angry and the right to complain as well as throwing temper..
But still , my thought has not settled down... memories are still constantly bombarding my mind... Everythings that i see , everything that i hear , whenever its related , memories will appear again .. maybe i'm just too used to the lifestyle before... but still... i dunno what going to happen next....
posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/21/2004 09:38:00 AM
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have a very fulfilling day ... Wake up early in the morning and went market with my mum... start following her to buy all the foods for our New Year eve dinner...and buy some clothes... Forgot when is the last time i followed her to the market.. but i seem to enjoy it.. Walking around the market, seeing all the aunties choosing the food and grabbing all the best items... i wonder whether i will be like them..or maybe i will be hanging around cold storage next time.. haha...
Got a couple of cheap clothes... think its good considering the price.. haha ... Anyway, have a early lunch with my mum ... n realised that my appetite has dropped so much that i will be full by just eating a little...
Went home to finish my CS minutes... finally i finished transferring all those english minutes to Chinese Minutes... think my Chinese has improved a lot.. especially my han yu pin yin.. haha... a great satification...Its so good clearing those stuffs cos it took up quite a lot of my CS work load..now, i can really put in more time to study .. n play (since CNY is coming soon...)..hahah....
Went out with my mum again in the afternoon... We went to Chinatown and i'm so excited about it that i brings her to those places that Juv show mi ... hahah .. especially the "little bread" shop and the Yong Tou Fu stall... though i still couldnt manage to eat that Yong Tou Fu stall, i'm equally happy as i'm able to show my mum to the place that i went too ... hehe ... Especially the "little Bread" shop... hehe ... Was walking the same route , going to the same OG, showing my mum the same sleeveless shirt and more and more... hehe... Its so so fun...
M really happy today cos i have bought so so many clothes for myself... the best thing is ... my mum is paying for all the items... haha...thanks you, mum.....first , we went to the pasan malan n buy 2 beach shorts for myself and a pair of jean for my dad... then we went to buy my dad's old-fashion shirts ( thats wat my mum call it)..then we went to the OG to buy the sleeveless shirt for my brother...
Juv, we got a white one for my brother..hehee .. n for your info ... my mum says that the red shirt which u have an eye on is very nice.. n the best thing is there are onli small left.. so my mum is so so disappointed with it cos obviously , my bigger size brother couldnt fit into the small size T-shirt.... so if u want.. better go n buy ... hhahaah
beside that ... i bought an OP beach wear for myself too ...i think its very sweet.. especially since its light blue shirt with light pink strip.. hahaa...though i can fix into the "small" size shirt, i decided to buy a "medium" size one.. so that the shirt wouldnt look too tight when i wear it.. hehe
guess wat .. i bought myself a pair of shoes as well ..a "not so high"high heel shoes.. hehe... have a hard time choosing it cos my mum is already so tired that she start complaining non-stop abt the price of the shoes and the crowd and the queue ( which is the worst) .... anyway, i manage to settle on a pair of blue high heel shoes which is also the cheaper range there.. but the shoes really look good as well .. hehe .. n its blue...
We leave Chinatown and proceed to our next location , Tiong Bahru Plaza... why do we go there.. Cos actually our main objective for today's shopping is to go down to Tiong Bahru Plaza and buy a steamboat for my mum.. hahha .. Very out of point rite.. going all the way to Chinatown and spending our half day there but didnt really meet our objective till we finish shopping... hhehe
but then , we still manage to buy the steamboat... for only 10 min of shopping ... haha ... thats not all... i went around and got a pair of very nice jean which costs us $64 ... Its suppose to be $80 , but its on a less 20% sale... haha .. i really like that jean a lot ... hehe ... m suppose to go home then i realise i haven buy a shirt for CNY... was thinking of buying it tml after sch but realised that i will not be free until CNY eve... No way m i going to buy shirt on CNY eve... its so so crowd.. ... So my mum decided that no matter wat.. we will buy my shirt today.. hehe ..
At first, we are at this very fashionable shop whereby the clothes are said to be wore by famous artists... but i just think that those clothes look too fashionable for me... its so uncomfortable and inrealistic...its so Kua Zhang..... dun think i will want to wear those to Malaysia... haha ...
Finally we settle at one shop with a simple purple shirt ...I think i will just look great by wearing it with my new jean and heel... hehe ....M so so happy cos i really got myself a lot of new Clothes today... though its very tiring and i'm feeling very tired now.. i still think its worth it .... But , i forgot to study today... ahhh.... die ... hehe... think i will just lock myself in the library tml after the webcasting... hehe ... Definitely not going to study now, i just hope i will not fall asleep half way through my study tml ... hmm .. think i will be going swimming tml after my tutorial ... then i will go for my Hi lo ...then i will have a meeting to attend.. wat a long day again .. but i'm happy cos i'm really looking forward for the CNY.. hehe ... just a few more days... hehe ...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/18/2004 11:06:00 PM
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Haven been blogging recently, cos there are so many things to be done... goodness.. m so so tired.. thought there are lots of things happened around me recently .. some interesting, some boring , some happy and some sad... but guess i'm just too lazy to update my blog... hahaha
Anyway, m still busy with my studies, CCA and work.. finally started my reading and constantly clearing my CCA stuffs...Have went to Hi lo and Pilates as well to keep fit ..hehe ... also celebrated Terence's birthday at Marche on friday....(yummy.. the foods there are really great..)... Life is back to my normal busy lifestyle.... Currently have one tuition job.. was thinking whether to take up another... but guess i wun be cos i dun want to pack my scendule up again and tired myself too much... i need to focus on my studies and CCA this sem .. this is the main concern for me this sem ...hehe ...
Anyway, cant wait for New Year... hehe... Cos i will not be staying in Singapore... Wonder how it is like to celebrate CNY "oversea".. m really excited abt it .. hehe ... But for the time being... i will need to continue to study and clear most of my reading before the CNY so that i wun have to worry too much abt not studying and lacking behind after CNY ...hehehe....
M really becoming more hardworking recently.. so proud of myself.. hahhaa ... anyway, think i will need to sleep soon.. haven been sleeping so late recently.. getting a bit blur now.. hahah ... Here by i will like to wish everyone a Happy CNY.. hehe .. hope you guys will get lots of HOng Bao ... hahaha
posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/18/2004 02:46:00 AM
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There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl...
This ROMANTIC GUY folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl...
Although, at that time he was just a small fry in his company,his future doesn't seemed too bright,they were very happy together..Until one day,his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back.
She also told him that she couldn't visualize any future for the both of them,so they went their own ways there and then...
Heartbroken, the guy agreed. But when he regains his confidence,he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of him....
Finally with all these hard work and the help of friends,this guy had set up his own company! You never fail until you stop trying.
One rainy day, while this guy was driving,he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella the rain walking to some destination.
Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched.It didn't take him long to realize those were his girl's parents...
With a heart in getting back at them,he drove slowly beside the couple,wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan...
He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore; he had his own company, car, condo, etc.
He made it!
Before the guy can realize, the couple was walking towards a cemetery,and he got out of his car and followed...and he saw his girl,a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone and he saw his paper cranes beside her...
Her parents saw him.He asks them why had this happened.
They explained,she did not leave for France at all...She was ill with cancer...She had believed that he will make it someday,but she did not want to be his obstacle!!...
therefore she had chosen to leave him.
Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again... he can take some of those back with him..
Once you have loved, you will always love...
For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever...
The guy just wept...
The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them..... hope you would understand...
Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person whom you thought meant nothing to you...
The greatest challenge in our life is to find someone who knows your flaws and differences and yet still willingly embraces you with so much love.
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Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
Once you have loved, you will always love...
For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever...
The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them..... hope you would understand...
Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person whom you thought meant nothing to you...
Love is a simple word , its just a four letter words... but wat it contains.... is beyond the four letter words... It will make you happy .. but sad as well ... Loving the right person , you will be happy... loving the wrong person, you will be sad.... Thats y , there are people who are not willing to fall in love , fearing to get hurt....
A relationship is definitely beyond the word love... Communication is more important ... Hope everyone will know how to treasure the one you love and always be willing to communicate .. stay connected... Be happy ... Thats for all the couple out there....
posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/13/2004 11:51:00 PM
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Went for my first tuition for my primary five student today. But when i call them at 1pm, no one seem to pick up the call ... having tuition at 130pm , i thought, maybe its too early ... maybe the mother will be back in 15 min... i decided to at least go down so that if the mum come home and remember there is a tuition , i wun be late for it as well... On my way down, i keep calling their phone to make sure that they are back , but till i reach the bus stop , there are still no one picking up my call .. sad... I knew they have forgotten about it , but i still decided to go to the front gate to double check...in the end, i ended up at the back gate... goodness... i got to walk all round the building to get to the front gate... though i could have walked backward ( which is a shorter way to get to the front gate ) , i walked the other way.... VEry stupid .. but i find it ok cos i can at least excerise a bit .... i always love walking around...
anyway , i have to call back the mum again cos they are really not at home...
Travel down to Orchard to buy some cards... the traffic is very bad. Everywhere is jammed... but good thing is i'm trying to waste my time too .. so i jus take my own sweet time in the bus looking at the scenery and thinking abt stuffs...
went straight down to another tuition after i bought my cards . the traffic is as bad as it was in the early afternoon... but i manage to reach my student place on time ( yay... not late ..hehe)...
Was doing my CS stuff again , but happen to press on the draft of my hotmail... realised that i actually store something there which i didnt notice... was looking through it and a lot of thought came into my mind... there are words that i actually said to encourage ppl , but i never seem to remember those myself...
Words Like "nothing can stop you to be happy except yourself","No matter how bad the situation is , one can overcome it easier with a smile or a least thing will feel better when you take it lightly"," Life will still go not ever when u r sad , Time will stop for no one.So why make your day wrost when you can actually make it better by being happy."
Why make ur day wrost when you can actually make it better by being happy... it sounds so easier , but how many ppl can remember this and take it lightly.. Eventually , ppl will forget abt the anger they once have, but at that moment ... the very moment, who can take it lightly immediately... Definitely not me... cos i'm always so rush and stubborn ... hmm ...
think i should start learning the meaning behind this words all over again .... time to learn to be a little less hot-tempered and take time more lightly.. think it will really hope to make my days happier... cos recently , i have become a lot more hot-tempered... especially for those frenz who have withness it ... like during the meeting, buying stuffs and of course waiting for ppl ....
sorry if i have scare you guy out k ... dunno wat have happened to me recently .. but i will try to control my temper too... hheehehe... anyway, going to have a heavy day tml ... hope you guy have a great sunday tml ...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/10/2004 10:10:00 PM
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School have started for a week.. i have been getting back to the usual and busy lifestyle... The worst thing is i'm not getting better ... Juz recover from my cold and i'm now having soar throat and cough... think its the weather.. so heaty recently ... and maybe partly due to my mood swing as well ..hehe...
Money going out again.. now , i'm really planning carefully on wat i'm going to spend.. going to be thrifty a bit ... but still there are some money that i have to spend....Like i need to buy textbook , which cost a bomb, and join some aerobic lesson ( very important) cos i need to stay in shape and relax a bit as well and to buy a cheap pair of sport shoes... the rest can wait ... This yr, most of my frenz is turning 21st ... n that means i'm going to spend more too... die .. hehe ./.. but its ok .. cos everyone onli have one 21st.... N i'm going to make sure the ppl that are important to me feel that they are important to me.. heheh ...
Going to have a very busy school life with mostly my CCA stuff and my studies... but i will relax as well ... Noeing that i dun have a good health , i will take care of myself too .. will try not to stay out too late... sleep early and wake up early as well ... Resolution 2 : attend all lect , tutorials and be punctual ... Of course, pay attention in class and study hard.. Work hard for my CCA stuff as well .. hehe
and to be a little less gan choeng... hhehe ...
Arts bash is coming up ... should i go??? hmmm... maybe i shouldnt .... but then , it all depends on my mood actually ..hehe...
Going to buy shoes tml ... anyone free to join me in the evening ??? call mi k ..hehe
posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/10/2004 12:25:00 AM
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Refuse to update anything on the web cos i cannot view my own website... Dunno wats wrong with blogger.. but jus simply cannot view it ... so sad...
Anyway, haven been doing anything else recently except for my cca stuff... have been busy with meetings ,minutes, occ etc etc... N not to forget that i'm not feeling well recently... Not sick but alomst there.. so its like , sometime good, sometime bad... so terrible...
Good news for me.. i have been reading newspaper n i'm so proud of myself.. further, i have been sleeping earlier n waking up earlier too ... but guess not for today, cos i have a late dinner.. so need time to digest my food.. hehe ...
Anyway, guys want to come to my house for CNY .. m looking for mahjong kakis and ppl to finish my mum's food.. hhehe...
have some confusing thought recently.. but i guess its not very important for me now... hehe... Cant wait for CNY .. hehe.. actually more on CNY eve.. hehe... Cant forget the beautiful firework at marina sq there... its the most beautiful moment every yr.. hehe...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/06/2004 11:57:00 PM
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31/12/2003 - 1/1/2004:
Was at home the whole day for New Year Eve till Ronnie call me out at night... Feeling really bored at home, i finally decided to get out of the house and join them for some fun.. We went to Zouk for countdown. Though the atmosphere was great, its just too crowded... Dunno why, but i just dun feel really comfortable ( of course its not becos of ron n accompanies). The music is loud , the crowd is good, but they just didnt catch my attention... As i have long decided, i left rite after the countdown .. Everything was great , especially noticing huili n james through the crowd... M so great to see them. At least got to be the first few to wish them happy new year. .ehehe...
Was trying to get through ying's phone, but its just Starhub... hahaha .. the onli company that get jam the whole night ...hehe ..at least for the past one hour after countdown ..hehe.. dunno y M1 never seem to have the pro .. hehe... Anyway, i wun forget to wish my dear sis happy new year... M really happy for her cos i know she will enjoy herself ... hehe
Anyway, the day issit too bad cos i finally got to meet him after that... Wat more can i say, Its so great seeing him again...
Had a good rest on the new year day.. I tropically did nothing but sleep n eat. ..hehe.. was looking through all my frenzs' webby , and realised that a couple of them had put down their New Year Resolution... hhehe... Wats mine then ..
Actually, i haven really seriously thought abt it .. but i really hope that i ( n of course everyone) can get healthier. Get rid of my Thyroid and continue to keep fit and maintain my weight n figure .. heheh ... Ohh ohh.. N of course, make sure i score b- and above for all my modules that i'm gonna to take in the coming sem ..
N hoping to go for an oversea trip with him ( which will be quite impossible ..hhehe) .. Last but not least, Wishing all my frenz, families and I have a better and happier year ahead , with less worries, more laughter and more happy memories... hehe
posted by Trish daydreaming at 1/02/2004 11:40:00 PM
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