~! A World of Love !
Live to Love, Love to Live ~
Another story that interest mi .hehe. enjoy.
The Old Phone:
When I was quite young, my father had one of the first telephones in our neighborhood. I remember the polished, old case fastened to the wall. The shiny receiver hung on the side of the box. I was too little to reach the telephone, but used to listen with fascination when my mother talked to it.
Then I discovered that somewhere inside the wonderful device lived an amazing person. Her name was "Information Please" and there was nothing she did not know. Information Please could supply anyone's number and the correct time. My personal experience with the genie-in-a-bottle came one day while my mother was visiting a neighbor.
Amusing myself at the tool bench in the basement, I whacked my finger with a hammer, the pain was terrible, but there seemed no point in crying because there was no one home to give sympathy.
I walked around the house sucking my throbbing finger, finally arriving at the stairway. The telephone! Quickly, I ran for the footstool in the parlor and dragged it to the landing. Climbing up, I unhooked the receiver in the parlor and held it to my ear. "Information, please" I said into the mouthpiece just above my head.
A click or two and a small clear voice spoke into my ear.
"Information."
"I hurt my finger..." I wailed into the phone, the tears came readily enough now that I had an audience."Isn't your mother home?" came the question.
"Nobody's home but me," I blubbered.
"Are you bleeding?" the voice asked.
"No," I ! replied. "I hit my finger with the hammer and it hurts."
"Can you open the icebox?" she asked.
I said I could. "Then chip off a little bit of ice and hold it to your finger," said the voice.
After that, I called "Information Please" for everything. I asked her for help with my geography, and she told me where Philadelphia was. She helped me with my math. She told me my pet chipmunk that I had caught in the park just the day before, could eat fruit and nuts.
Then, there was the time Petey, our pet canary, died. I called, Information Please," and told her the sad story. She listened, and then said things grown-ups say to soothe a child. But I was not cnsoled. I asked her, "Why is it that birds should sing so beautifully and bring joy to all families, only to end up as a heap of feathers on the bottom of a cage?"
She must have sended my deep concern, for she said quietly, "Paul, always remember that there are other worlds to sing in." Somehow I felt better.
Another day I was on the telephone, "Information Please."
"Information," said in the now familiar voice.
"How do I spell fix?" I asked.
All this took place in a small town in the Pacific Northwest. When I was nine years old, we moved across the country to Boston. I missed my friend very much. "Information Please" belonged in that old wooden box back home and I somehow never thought of trying the shiny new phone that sat on the table in the hall. As I grew into my teens, the memories of those childhood conversations never really left me.
Often, in moments of doubt and perplexity I would recall the serene sense of
security I had then. I appreciated now how patient, understanding, and kind she was to have spent her time on a little boy.
A few years later, on my way west to college, my plane put down in Seattle.
I had about a half-hour or so between planes. I spent 15 minutes or so on
the phone with my sister, who lived there now. Then without thinking what I
was doing, I dialed my hometown operator and said, "Information Please."
Miraculously, I heard the small, clear voice I knew so well.
"Information."
I hadn't planned this, but I heard myself saying, "Could you please tell me how to spell fix?" There was a long pause. Then came the soft spoken answer, "I guess your finger must have healed by now."
I laughed, "So it's really you," I said. "I wonder if you have any idea how much you meant to me during that time?" I wonder," she said, "if you know how much your call meant to me. I never had any children and I used to look forward to your calls."
I told her how often I had thought of her over the years and I asked if I could call her again when I came back to visit my sister.
"Please do", she said. "Just ask for Sally."
Three months later I was back in Seattle. A different voice answered, "Information."
I asked for Sally.
"Are you a friend?" she said.
"Yes, a very old friend," I answered.
"I'm sorry to have to tell you this," she said. "Sally had been working part-time the past few years because she was sick. She died five weeks ago." Before I could hang up she said, "Wait a minute, did you say your name was Paul?"
"Yes." I answered.
"Well, Sally left a message for you. She wrote it down in case you called.Let me read it to you."
The note said, "Tell him there are other worlds to sing in. He'll know what I mean."
I thanked her and hung up. I knew what Sally meant.
Never underestimate the impression you may make on others. Whose life have you touched today?
Lifting you on eagle's wings. May you find the joy and peace you long for.
Life is a journey ... NOT a guided tour.
~ Never be afraid to try something new,
Remember amateurs built the ark - Professionals built the Titanic. ~ (",)
Smile :- A curve that can set a lot of things straight. :)
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/26/2003 02:23:00 PM
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CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS?
A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested, "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite, humorous, sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest."
The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand You need television."
There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife.
Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.
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NO POINTING FINGERS
A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?" The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticise your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you."
We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at.
This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves. If we forgive others, others will ignore our mistake too.
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NO OVERPOWERING
Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage.
Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."
It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness. It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations.
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RIGHT SPEECH
There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.
A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, "Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered, "You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you."
Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship.
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TRUST
Trust is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation. A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board."
There was silence. She repeated, "PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is." Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator
answered with just "hello" instead of"PUB".
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PERSONAL PERCEPTION
Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?" Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.
Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman." The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey.
Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders. It seems
to be the only choice left.
Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.
Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear.
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BE PATIENT
This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three- year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck.
The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands.
When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?"
The father went home & committed suicide.
Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't.
Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.
Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be patient. Forgive & forget. Love one and all. If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/25/2003 02:33:00 PM
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Exam timetable is out...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/22/2003 11:22:00 PM
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Went to find him yetersday.. Was really glad to see him. knowing that he is busy and tired, i thought that he might not even want to come down and meet me. But was happy that he is being very patient. Thoughout the evening, i was putting up a face but he still do not throw any temper....Told him wat happen, thought he were started scolding me again, but i was wrong. He really give me a lot of advices and posted a lot of question for me to think. he was very patient and i really felt very happy talking to him.
though my frenzs had tried to consult me too. but i just refused to let them consult. i onli want to tell him. feeling really better now... Thanks boy....
Time to study... last than a month to exam.
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/20/2003 12:21:00 PM
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Another story that i love.... Very meaningful..... especially for me. I have been working so hard and stressing myself so much that wat i get in return is not wat i want ....... Enjoy the story
~*$20*~
A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.
SON: "Daddy, may I ask you a question?"
DAD: "Yeah sure, what is it?" replied the man.
SON: "Daddy, how much do you make an hour?"
DAD: "That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?" the man said angrily.
SON: "I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?"
DAD: "If you must know, I make $20 an hour."
"Oh", the little boy replied, with his head down.
Looking up, he said, "Daddy, may I please borrow $10?"
The father was furious, "If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I work hard everyday for such this childish behavior."
The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.
The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions.
How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?
After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $10 and he really didn't ask or money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.
"Are you asleep, son?" He asked.
"No daddy, I'm awake," replied the boy.
"I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier," said the man. "It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $10 you asked for."
The little boy sat straight up, smiling. "Oh, thank you daddy!" He yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.
The man, seeing that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, then looked up at his father.
"Why do you want more money if you already have some?" the father grumbled.
"Because I didn't have enough, but now I do," the little boy replied.
"Daddy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you."
So what is the moral of the story?
Don't work too hard...and you know what's the full
word of FAMILY?
FAMILY =
( F )ATHER
( A )ND
( M )OTHER
( I )
( L )OVE
( Y )OU!
THE MORAL OF THIS STORY :
Share this story with someone you like. But even better, share $20 worth of time with someone you love. It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts.
If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than to our family . An unwise investment indeed!
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/20/2003 12:08:00 PM
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wat have happen to me. .....i really dunno... i dunno why am i irritating everyone. I'm really feeling very depressed and is feeling worst when people try to consult me. I know that there are a lot of good frenz out there caring for me and are willing to do anything to help. But, i just dun want to be helped. I understand everything and know everything that you guys are saying and i know that you all really want me to be happy... I really appreciate that. But i dun want to be the cry baby that everyone has to come to me and ask me " R u ok?".
I'm really feeling very sick of myself, dunno wat m i saying, doing, thinking. Maybe wat i'm pissed with is just some silly stupid minor stuff that when you guy heard about it , you will start scolding me and say that i'm asking for it. Cos i could have done something else to stop it ... I'm really feeling very stupid cos no matter wat i do, i dun seem to do it rite. Never seem to do it rite in other people point of view. They will start saying why are you doing it this way, you could have did it that way, you ask for it cos you can dun do it. Maybe i'm not brave enough to accept people's opinion but i definitely dun need sympathy.
i'm simply irritating everyone but unwilling to let anyone to help me... Maybe i just dun want people to think that i'm actually seeking for attention. I dun need attention now.
I'm very pessimistic, emotional and stubborn... whenever i feel that things are not going the rite way, i will blame myself for it. Why others can do it while you cant? Why is it always happening from you? Now its getting worst ....
I beginning to really hate myself. N i have never believe in myself. i still cannot understand why will there be people who actually like me or feeling great to have me as a frenz ... maybe sooner or later, u will get so used to my rubbish that you cant even be bother to consult. Probably, you will just let me there to cry until i'm satisfied with it.
Wat i need is just a get away from Singapore. Let me recharge, relax, regain my confidence. Please dun bother about me, dun scold me, dun consult me...cos i will be ok ... I will have to , or must get over it if not i will not moved on. Thanks for all those that want to help and i'm really sorry for being an idiot cos i really want to solve it myself . I want to be independent and strong. So please let me be or i will never grow up ... I will definitely go see a doctor if i really could not solve it k ....
So .... who is onz for a holi >???
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/18/2003 10:26:00 PM
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out of a sudden, i'm feeling very lost... didn't went to school today. Didnt even feel like going anywhere except in front of my com. But still, i went out to see my geyao song concert. Dun think its very nice except for a few singers that really impressed me ..N, those are really good...
went to have dinner with Ying and rora. Dun feel like eating, but i ordered a lot while i'm only eating half of each stuffs. Ying have to leave half way to meet her frenz... she getting real busy , hope she will take care of herself.
Had a extremely quiet dinner with them, my best frenz. Its totally not me.. wat is happening ... i really dunno..think i'm just too tired.. tired of being wat i m , tired of having the same old life, tired of thinking... was feeling really useless and helpless... cant stop myself from thinking about it. cant seem to cheer myself up.... m very irritated about it , but yet, cant do anything to stop it .... feeling very aliented....very lost .....maybe its time where i go for another holi trip..anywhere will do, just out of singapore will do .... M thinking that if i cannot find someone i can enjoy myself with to go with me, i will go on my own .... dun feel like going with a big group... heehee ..
so where should i go... thought of going for a cruise, a holiday to batan, bali etc, a trip to Australia or taiwan. anyone interested going to any of this place can tell me... hehe ....
Will be having my exam in one month time... dun think i will have the time to update my blog.. so take care everyone k ... miss all of u ...hhehee
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/18/2003 12:41:00 AM
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Another good thing i want to share with you:
For those who are familiar with the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen Covey, this article makes me relate to one of the principles i.e. "Begin with the end in mind". Read on and be blessed.
Have you read this before?
Discover the 90/10 Principle. It will change your life (at least the way you react to situations)
What is this principle?
10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided by how you react. What does this mean? We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us. We cannot stop the car from breaking down. The plane will be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic. We have no control over this 10%. The other 90% is different. You determine the other 90%.
How?
By your reaction. You cannot control a red light., but you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react.
Let's use an example.
You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just what happened. What happens when the next will be determined by how you react. You curse. You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over. She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to
finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus. Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit. After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 (traffic fine) away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started terrible. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home, When you arrive home, you find small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter. Why? Because of you reacted in the morning. Why did you have a bad day?
A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?
The answer is D.
You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day. Here is what could have and should have happened.
Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say,"It's ok honey, you just need to be more careful next time". Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and waves. You and your spouse kiss before you go to work. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff.Your boss comments on how good the day you are having.
Notice the difference?
Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different.
Why?
Because of how you REACTED. You really do not have any control over 10% of
what happens. The other 90% was determined by your reaction.
Here are some says to apply the 90/10 principle.
If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you! React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed out etc.
How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic?
Do you lose your temper?
Pound on the steering wheel? (A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off)
Do you curse?
Does your blood pressure skyrocket?
Do you try and bump them?
WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at work?
Why let the cars ruin your drive?
Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.
You are told you lost your job.
Why lose sleep and get irritated?
It will work out. Use your worrying energy and time into finding another job. The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take out your frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over what is going on. Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger. Why get stressed out? It will just make things worse. Now you know the 90-10 principle. Apply it and you will be amazed at the results.
You will lose nothing if you try it.
The 90-10 principle is incredible. Very few know and apply this principle.
The result? Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress,
trials, problems and heartache. There never seem to be a success in life.
Bad days follow bad days. Terrible things seem to be constantly happening.There is constant stress, lack of joy, and broken relationships. Worry consumes time. Anger breaks friendships and life seems dreary and is not enjoyed to the fullest. Friends are lost. Life is a bore and often seems cruel. Does this describe you? If so, do not be discouraged.
You can be different! Understand and apply the 90/10 principle.
It will change your life.
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/12/2003 12:48:00 PM
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Finally got a chance to update my webbie... have been having a real busy week recently... Everyday, overslept, when school, finished lesson, went tuitions one after another, meeting , then go home. By the time i reached home, its 10 plus .. Relax a while to watch tv , then do hw till 2-3am ... goodness... everyday, rain or shine, falling sick or energetic, i'm having the same routine. got a test today , another test next week and due date for my ss project on the week after next.... two weeks after that then its our sem exam ... Have been studying lately ....Dun want to reject... Thus, as long as i really put in my effort, i will feel happy no matter wats the result ....
I really feel that i'm growing stronger everyday.. hehe .. not physically, but mentally .. I learn to plan for a meeting, agenda, discussion about the project stuffs for my CCa major projects... etc.... really learn a lot from my CCA .. Glad that i didnt choose to drop it then ..hehe....
Though i'm happy with my busy lifestyle, i think i still need a break from it .. Too much for me to handle. But, dun think that its a great time now for me to take a break ... Exam coming soon, i need to prepare for it. N after exam, i still got a lot of project meeting and events in my CCA coming up .... Hope that i will have a chance to go for a short trip... Think my busy schedule will onli end till i step down in my CCA. Which is next week july ...sigh ... but again, not a lot of people got a chance to experience my kind of lifestyle.... HAAHAHa .. a way to comfort myself ...hahahaah
Take care everyone! n sorry if i haven been meeting up with u guys... will try my best to .... n Happy belated birthday , Siew lin.. sorry that i didnt have a time to wish you ... Hope u did have a wonderful time ...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/10/2003 08:32:00 PM
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I can't believe myself. I actually couldn't wake up for my work today... its like i total forgotten about it . Usually, i will remember to wake up for work or even if i dun, i knew that its me who didnt want to go. But today, its like, i couldn't remember though my alarm clock rang. I simply slept all the way, thinking that i'm not having any morning lesson. Lucky thing is my boss called ( issit lucky?) or i wun even wake up. Was late for work for an hr and 30min. but, i'm in luck , cos my boss didnt scold me.hehe...Think its the lucky charm that i'm wearing today which bring me luck. :> there are so many phone calls today. I couldn't have the time to rest. Anyway, got to know that the full-time recep wanted to change the working days with me. Now, i got to work on 18 oct instead of 11oct... N the worst thing is that i got a field trip on the 18 oct. Juv going to kill me. Have to talk to my tutor on mon ... hope that i could change the date for my field trip...Muz wear my lucky charm on mon too ...hehe...
Went home to finish typing up my minute.... after that, went to give my mentees tuition though its really late...heh...
then went CCK to meet my dear....finally got to meet him. Was so so happy...Realised that CCK is really a boring place. Its so small and there are not much shops around for us to walk. We ended up at this movie shop for more than half an hour to watch a show that were screened. Think its "my wife is a gangster"... Was watching the show with no clue about its title till we saw the "icon". The immediate reaction: " ohhhh" .... In the shop, we are simply staying at a fixed spot,watching the show... Not long later, we noticed that there are a lot of pairs of eyes watching at us... We quickly walked out of the shop, hoping that the screen outside is showing the same movie. To our disappoinment, its not..... We ended up hanging around CCK before going home. Was having a headache thoughout till i bought my panadol. My Extra Fast Panadol..... hehe ... he was controlling my meals thoughout, not wanting me to fall sick by the wrong consumption of foods. Anyway, i really enjoyed myself today.
oh ya .... have anyone tried the Mac fish dipper? i think its nice... Can try if you have not..... N i like its now look too .... hehe...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/05/2003 02:27:00 AM
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Am really proved of myself today. Cos i know how to do my Assignment on my OWN...hehe .. its kind of easily actually ..... the answer are all from the lecture notes... As i haven been attending any lect, its quite surprising that i actually understand the question. The same thing goes to my EC3231 tut ... But i muz admit that the questions are really very easily. .. anyway, this really boost my moral ... At least , i didnt think that i make a wrong choice by majoring econ ...hehe....
Went to celebrating ying's birthday.. It has been quite some times seem ying , rora and me can come together for a dinner .... finally the three of us again... thats is a great feeling. We eat and shop and joking abt... at least, its something different from my stressful lifestyle..Its a moment where i dun have to think abt my school work, CCA work or even my tuition work ..heheh
I got a lot of presents too .. both ying n rora bought somethings for me ... its like its MY BIRTHDAY.........hehe .... Hope that everyday is a happy day for me .. :) N aa happy day for you too . :)
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/04/2003 01:33:00 AM
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Have a very busy day today. Woke up at 9am, then started to do my EL report till 130pm. Go School for tutorial then continued with my report till 330pm. Went to OSA to enquiry for CCA scoring system for my CS. By the time i have my lunch or dinner , its 5pm... Was so hungry but couldn't find anyone to eat with me.. Everyone seems to have eaten or too full to eat.. anyway, i went to canteen to eat on my own . Saw Sam there, but dun want to bother him as he was doing his Soci Assignment . Hope he has finished doing it ..hehe.... Anyway, went back to the library wanting to study. In the end, i didnt study too much as i was busying chatting with rong beow, huili, annette, damain and terence. Really feel so so good... It has been a long time since all of us gathered. Especially with Sam, damain and terence. While for melvin, errr.... hahhaa... haven have much chance to chat with him ..hehe... anyway, i went for my CS meeting at 6 plus. Till 745pm, i got to rush for my tuition. Got a headache on the way to her house. N in the end, i teaches her Sec 1 stuff when she is only Pri 5 ... really feel so bad to confuse her ... Hope she dun blame me for that..ehehe..
On my way to tuition, i saw my JC's GP tutor ... have a good chat with her on the bus stop. So good to see her today... hehe...
Got to know that one of my frenz is upset today. Dunno issit upset about us or its just too stress for him. Didnt really got a chance to talk to him recently as i'm really very packed this week. Though i kbow that he has test tml, i simply dun get to my head to wish him good luck. I really too busy to pay attention to him or even to anyone recently ... hope he dun blame me for that .... at least i care about his upset though its a bit late... anyway, hope he does well for his test ...
Despite the fact that i have a busy week, headache and lack of sleep, i felt very occupied. Its like everything that i do is so so meaningful and worthwhile... that i did make full use of my time. Kind of enjoy it. Maybe, its just becos i "studying" now...hehe.. But ... yet, due to the busy schedule, i didnt have the time to even smsing my bf .. kind of miss him though we just met on sunday. So hope to lie on his arm and sleep ..hehe.. can sleep and be with him at the same time .. by definitely going to ask me why i didnt have enough sleep ...hehe.... still, i miss my dear ... but i got to finish my assignment lastest by friday first ... anyway , he will want mi to study first as well ...heheh
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/02/2003 02:49:00 AM
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A nice story that i heard ... enjoy ..
Tree
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The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal. I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence
and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt
her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day.
When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her
getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't
acknowledge her presence too.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
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Leaf
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During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage.
During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But
after a mth, he got together with another gal. I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move?
Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking
a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings
towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him
right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call
every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.
Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile &
didn't ask me to stay.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit.
Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.
Wind
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Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing
soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their
classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her.
She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.
Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away
It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have
declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to
her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head"
She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell.
During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay
~ ~ You yearn for what you Fantasize than
To realise who you should Treasure ~ ~
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/01/2003 10:56:00 AM
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