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end of the month again..... a day that i have been waiting for .... and now... i'm hoping for the next month end....... hahaha.... just gotten my pay check.. but within a few days... not even the start of the new month , i have spent more than half of my salary.... hmm... though wat i have spent is mainly to pay off my bills, loan, part for saving, and some essential stuffs, i feel so broke now.... n the main thing is i haven start enjoying the new month at all... sad..... though this month wasnt as bad as last month, at least i have more cash left before my pay check, there is still room for improvement.... at least, i stop mahjonging , which really help mi in saving some cash that i wasnt suppose to spend....
hmmm.... now i know why ppl always say, when u pass 20, the time seem to pass super fast n the next moment u know, you are 30s.... haha .. its becos, everyday wat u do is to work work work .. n hoping for the next pay check.... hoping for yr end ... for bonus.... n when it comes, you will hope for the next one.... n it goes on , and on and on ....... haha....... feel that i have a pretty boring life.... basically i have not much life .... though i enjoy going to work everyday.... i never seem to have fun time, except going out with my boy... if i go out , i will be spending ..but i dun wan to spend, so most of the time , i will choose not to go out ... or if i do, the most is go eat, ktv... or watch movie.. nothing interesting or exciting ...
haiz... n now i thinking whether should i change job... i actually got an offer at a piping company ... the company is really small... it just started off.. n in there i will have the opportunity to learn everything ... but my position will onli be a sale coordinater... though my present company seem pretty more interesting n of course a better prospect to a certain extent... but the system really sux.... ppl refusing to help ( certian ppl ) n u always have to cover ppl ass while others getting all the benefit ... feel so shitting... but come to think about it .. wasnt most jobs the same... in life , thats wat its all about ... ppl is self centred.... if u are nice ... u will be bullied... n ppl will start to pull all the job to you.. so its either, u bullied ppl or ppl bullied you ... for mi , i choose to be netural ... i wun let anyone step over mi ... n i certainly wun step over anyone.... for this i was said to be very firece , always scolding ppl .... haiz... to mi , i feel that i'm like bossing around... while i'm not really comfortable about as i'm onli a mangement trainee in the company ... a person that is there for onli 4 months.. i feel really bad that i have to scold a manager who have been there for yrs... or to complain on a executive on her working style.... wat m i to do all this.... but the whole damn thing is ... they really sux... n i just cant help it when i see that the work done are so suxing....... haiz... was thinking .. if the offer is really good ..i will probably move on... if not, i will most likely stay to gain the experience... at least for a fresh grad.. i need it ... or ppl will be calling mi a job hoper.... haha
come to think about it... it has been almost 6 months since i grad .... missing all my frenz in the uni .. missing the time i play mahjong in the club room .. n of course bridge.. missing my buddy... n the life i have.... haiz... ppl come ppl goes....thats life .... we just have to move on ...
feel that i need some colour in my life... i just realised that i have been taking pictures which i love to for a long time... n i have been travelling at all..... not even to sentosa which i used to go.... i haven been excerising much cos of my job ( though i really try sometime to put in the effort to go swimming if i'm really not tired).. sob sob sob. wat a pathetic life i'm in .......
suddenly i feel like taking up driving lesson... hmmm... plan for the next yr ... after i have clear part of my loan ..n when i have more spare cash... but i definitely going to have my license within this 3 years.. thats my plan ..... hehee.... for now.. i should concentrate on saving money to clear my debts... n of course to excerise... haha..........
hoping for my life to get more INTERESTING.....
posted by Trish daydreaming at 10/30/2005 09:59:00 PM
