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~ Saturday, June 25, 2005

 

i finally realised why recently i have been so so so bad tempered and moody... cos i have been sort of throwing temper on my boy again .. n just locked myself at home instead of going out ... at first , i not happy cos i think my boy haven been spending much time with mi .. he is either too tired or lazy to go anyway or he is going to meet his frenz.. i felt so insignificant ... feel that we have less n less time to talk ... cant even share my days with him cos we didnt have much time to talk even on the phone ..or by the time we can talk , i really forgotten wat i want to tell him .....so actually feeling a bit down ..plus the fact that i dun really like wat i'm doing at work.. i feel even more agitated..

but i just went to see my doctor today n she say its becos i haven been taking my medicine .. cos i finished my medicine a few days ago n dun have the time to buy it cos i'm working . so i can onli wait till sat to buy my medicine .. n she say.. cos i never take my medicine .. that y i will feel agitated very easily.. n of course it will add on to my hot temperness... so at least i finally know i not so unreasonable cos i'm unreasonable.. its partly becos my thyroid is taking its effect... thought i'm still sad that my boy dun have time for mi .. but at least, i know why i'm so unreasonable that i onli know how to throw temper on him... at least it make mi feel better now... or not , i will be sad the whole day again... maybe sometime i am really unreasonable n like to "fa xiao jie pi qi", but at least i know this few days, its cos of my thyroid effect ...

hmmm.. but i really hope my boy will spend more time with mi ... haiz...

posted by Trish daydreaming at 6/25/2005 11:12:00 AM