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Now : 12.49am , 9/2/05 ... Its CNY ...
N i'm at home again ... sad ...Every yr, especially this time ( n Xmas eve n new year eve) , if i'm at home, i will feel super down ... dunno why ...maybe becos i'm a person that love celebration ... i love crowd.. i love to see everyone celebrating n countdowning for the new year n special day to come.... i love the feeling ......but sometime , especially Chinese new year eve, i will just get disappointed again n again yr after yr ...
i remembered, when i was young , i used to have reunion dinner together with my family ... we will watch the celebration show n each time i was just hoping i could be there... when i grow older , we have less n less of reunion dinner ... yes.. everyone is still at home , but we never eat together again .. my mum will just go n sleep while onli my brother will understand the meaning of reunion dinner n sit down at the dining table with mi to eat our dinner ... n for mi , i will go out with my frenz to count down at river ang bao n else where depending on the occassion .... i love the feeling .. some time , we will go n watch a moive too ... but now , this few yrs , i'm always at home ... missing the feeling ....
For xmas , i'm happy that i have two very close sis that we will always celebrate xmas n exchange gift today... for New Year , this yr i'm with my dear dear .. n i love it ... n i remembered going sentosa national countdown with June n jane couple of yrs back too .. the feeling was great .. having to meet lots of other ppl n of course have to take care of ourselves .. n i think there was once , i was with ronnie n company at zouk ... hahah .. so fun... but its always CNY that i'm alone...i miss the fire work at river ang bao ... n of course the river n night view at marina there ... remember last yr , this time , i'm at home too .. .but i left for malaysia on the 2nd day of new year for 3 days ...... hehe...n remember ying ying coming to my house at late night to send mi off n have supper with mi .. hehe..
This yr , i didnt contract anyone yet .. maybe cos i'm lazy la ... actually if i want to go out .. i can jolly well call my frenz out ... but weird mi ... i just hope that i'm with my dear dear ... hmm.. or i was just waiting for ppl to call mi out ( just like ronnie calling mi to go zouk with him a few yr back .. hehe)... i'm not sad... just feeling down ... cant help it anyway ...though i hope that at this moment , i'm outside with my dear dear .. i know i have made the right decision ... Dear dear has accompany mi the whole afternoon today .. n he is very tired... n u know, its CNY ... he has to be with his family too. ... n i really appreciate him spending time with mi n going down Chinatown with mi just to make mi happy n accompany mi buy bau kau ... really really love him ...but i cant help it to sound sad while talking to him cos i really dun like the feeling of being at home during this kinda event ... it makes mi felt like its not an event ...but u knoe ... thats mi ... tml i will be fine again ... anyway, i'm doing the right thing by staying at home n letting my dear dear rest .. cannot be a too demanding gf u know .. or not , he dun want mi .. hahaha. .muz be more understanding n lovely .... n stop making him worry........ hehe
Hai ... hope everyone will enjoy the Chinese New Year, get lots of ang bao n have a good rest for these holidays. hehe....... n Happy Chinese New Year !!!
posted by Trish daydreaming at 2/09/2005 01:49:00 AM
