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suppose to be in sch by now to do my revision for my exam .. but yes ..i'm online... wanted to write this onli after my exam... since i'm here now .. i muz well just write it down now .. in case i forgot again .. haha
think i started on this blog like 1yr plus ago ... the purpose for mi to write a blog is for mi to express my inner feeling which i dun dare to say it out but want ppl to know ... or at least a place where i can release out my anger , happiness etc ... however, i found that i have not been doing wat i'm suppose to do ... in fact, there was a lot of time where i wanted to write some stuff down .. but i didnt .. for fear that someone might read it ... then i'm not expressing myself .... of course, i have a right to write wat i want to write ... but .. i just feel that i'm being more n more reserve when writing stuff down my blog ...
i'm glad that there is actually ppl reading my blog or at least there are ppl that like my blog .. ppl like yew, sumit ... thanks for the positive comment on my blog ...
i'm actually not afraid of letting stranger know wats happen to my life .. but more of afraid ppl that i know know wat i'm thinking ... contridicting rite ... haha ... but if i dun write wat i feel ... ppl will never know too rite .. haha ..
recently, i have been wondering whether to let go of a feeling that i have ... but i soon realise that i should have let go long time ago.. for it will be better for mi .... wat for hang on to something that will never happen or work out ... i have heard too much from many ppl .. some say i deserve someone better .. some say i shouldnt give up just like that ... i should make the first move etc etc etc... but i come to know that i'm really not the kind of gal that will make the initial move unless the other parnter show a sign or something like that ... maybe i'm not suitable to be in any relationship now ... haha .. enough is enough... i really dun like to dance cha cha anymore. .. never mind if u dun understand .. haha ... i'm really happy with wat i have now ... n i believe i will be happier if i let go than if i'm go all the way in ... why jump into the wu di dong when u already know its wu di ... hhaha ....
i think that the pro with mi ... cos i'm too sensitive.. so when i like a person .. i will want to know everything abt the person ..or at least .. all possible thing ... but that will be a very horrible thing if i'm nothing to the person ... n i will feel extra horrible to get into the person life when he dun really think i have the right too ... haha ... wat m i talking man ... i guess all i want to say is i will feel bad to be so kia po but i cant help it .. cos thats wat i am ... so onli if i will to let go of the feeling that i have... then i wun be so kia po ... n i can always mantain the good friendship that we have... hhaha ...for i really treasure this friend....
oh ya... one more thing... just to inform all viewers that i might be changing the pattern of my blog after my exam ... that is if i can find a better design .. hehe ... n most likely i will.. hhehe ..so if u like this design .. too bad .. hehe.. come up more often to take ur last few look . hehe ...
thats all for now. . cos i already wasted 1hr 30min of my time which i'm suppose to use for my revision ... hehe.. off to sch now ...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/16/2004 09:39:00 AM
