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damn .. i so so so so so so pissed .. i just want to get away.. the shit in my camp is driving mi crazy... wat i really want is to get in done once n for all... i really have enough of it ...
suppose to have a enjoying time with ying n her poly frenz at ktv.. but the stupid shit have to call mi to discuss the camp thingy.. the last voice i want to hear is his voice lor ...arggg... ok no choice .. i got to bear with it ... i know he has been doing a lot of the work.. but u know something.. i dun care... i know i haven been doing much.. but i dun care too .. cos i have done wat i'm suppose to do.. i'm not going to do anymore unnecessary thing anymore...no more shit work... if he hasnt been around... maybe i will not be like that .. but too bad.. he is around... n thats good too.. cos at least , i can take a break. man ...thats something abt mi.. when i'm comfortable n happy with the group, i can work like mad with the group to get all the shitty job done ...cos i like the group.. but if i dun like the group... i will be very very slacking .. n even quitting cos i simply dun like the group.. the good thing is this shit onli come when i'm doing my last project .. if not , i will be quitting by now.. n the whole shitty reason that i cant quit now is becos i'm the PD.... if not , i will ... i will definitely quit..... damn it ...
i know the ppl there are disappointed with mi .. in fact, i think everyone are disappointed with everyone...cos all are not putting in effort...but i really have enough... i dun want to get my health wrosen due to this stupid thing lor .....n i have scarifice so much for this shit lor ....damn it ... i so want to go for the arts o week cos i miss the arts camp... n now.. u want to put the camp at o week ... damn u la.. how are we going to fight with all the fac man ... siao... n u want to do it illegally... madness...argggggg.......F***....
still cant forgot wat the stupid shit say... err.. "dun care u got to make urself free on these days.. who call u to take up so many things when u know u got this committment .." ( this was said when i got lots of LITO and dun have time to discuss the program with his before the pre camp ).. damn it la.. i really hope that i shut him off that time man... f***ing ass.. u dun have to work k .. ur father pay for ur sch fee.. all u need to do is to stay at home n play ur stupid mahjong.. u dun have to worry of anything k.. unlike mi.. i got to earn my living.. i got to worry for my sch fee, my meal n everything.. i got to work n earn money k...if u dun know, i have to worry how to pay for my sch fee so that i can take my exam last sem k ... f***.. n wat happen when i take up my time to do the program.. onli 3 councillor attend... n the last time i know is ..i got to find one more day to meet the councilllor that week... damn it .. u know my scendule is super pack.. n u still want to do this to mi... all u can say is " oh , we have no choice, we just discuss it yesterday" .. who the f*** are we man ... its u n her onli k ... n mi the PD... just dunno abt anything.. bull shit ... i dun want to know too... now i find that ... the less u know .. the better.. cos u dun have to do too much shitty job for them.. just have to say .. oh .. i dunno lei ...can liao.. thats my attitude towards them lor ...f***
but in the end , we still haven have our camp.... n now all my frenz cant go for my camp cos they will be in the o week... shit ... i so so wish that my frenz can be at my camp, cos i miss the chance to be with them at arts camp.. so i hope to make up for it in my camp or o week... now.. i cant have both.. shit shit SHIT... so sad ...
i hope i can just tell them to cancel the camp .. cos i really dun want to do the cAMp anymore... but i cant.. cos for my cs i cant... i dun want to be too crude to them ... dun understand why the stupid shit has to write thats notice on the yahoo group saying .. " its either we make it a success or it will be a disgrace.".. shit u la...i mean, i know what he is saying is sensible but u know wat, i just dun like him....i really cant stand working with him man.....
n yesterday he say, we have discussed to make matric fair a mean to attract freshies for the camp...so we are making it big... Who are WE... matric fair should be in charge by the exco member lor .. u are just a com member in this project lor ... i know i sound very mean lor .. but i'm really very pissed lor .. arggg.. i think i'm going crazy.. its so so so unlike mi ... i dun like this.. i dun like myself to lost such a temper.. its very irritating .... arggg...
spend the whole journey complaining to ying on our way home... i was shouting around lor ... getting a bit too emotional liao... shit shit shit shit shit ... n i'm now having a flu ...sick ... damn it..
wish to go for a holi ... anywhere... just let mi get away with this for a while... go somewhere they cannot get mi .. if not, i will go crazy man...can someone hear mi out there.... anyone free from the 19th... i'm free that week... hehe...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 7/08/2004 01:37:00 PM
