~! A World of Love !
Live to Love, Love to Live ~
Sometimes i feel very lonely ... Though i have my frenz around... but i still feel very cold....always wanted to share my happiness and sadness with that special someone. To tell him wat happen, complain to him, laugh abt with him, gossip with him and everything... Want to spend my life with him.... nothing else but with him... but Who is he???? Does this person actually exist ??
Seeing my frenz getting attached one by one .. have given me a mixed feeling... feeling very happy for them to have found true love... feeling jealous cos i haven... knowing the fact that there are a lot of things i cannot rush ... i cannot help but still feel lonely...
But am i ready to walk into another relationship ? can i commit myself into it ? Do i want to be in it again and face the risk of getting hurt again...dun think i can take the pain again... Hurting once is really enough for me .. it has almost kill mi and i will rather run away from it ....
Maybe that y i have been running away from stuffs... closing my heart from anyone so that i will not get hurt... but ended up , i'm still feeling hurt .. keep telling myself that its not important, but the more i tell myself, the more fall into it .... Trying very hard to take it lightly... but i never seem to succeed...There are a lot of time i feel like expressing myself , but i dunno how to... n maybe dun want to ... guess i just not ready for it.. cos each time, things just keep coming to my mind that its not right... there are still something missing... Feeling really shallow, naive n stupid... my mind is so narrow... Time to grow up , Tricia... Time to wake up ... There is fairy tale in the world.. but it will never happen to u ... stop dreaming n be realistic....
Maybe i should give myself more time ....
posted by Trish daydreaming at 3/05/2004 11:41:00 PM
