~! A World of Love !
Live to Love, Love to Live ~
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How should i describle wat have happened this few days????? hmmm.... basically nothing much happened except for me going back to Sentosa, my beloved island on wed. Was really excited about going back cos i can finally got to sun-tan... its was a great day, no rain the whole day. Though there werent a lot of people there, Sentosa is still so lively ... that wats i like about it ..
When i reached, i decided to spend some time reading book... soon to realise that i cannot concentrate...hehe... ended up playing bridge with the Arts club ppl ..hehe.... finally know how to play... n its actually kinda fun. when into the lagoon and have some light swim or simply playing with water. then have some sun-tanning and singing session... couldnt believe that Steven actually can sing and he sing really well too. hehe... Finally found an arts club person that sing chinese songs...hahahaa..... Finally went back to the lagoon to play Zhong Ji Mi Ma...hahaha .. was really really fun .... How can we end our day without playing bridge again .....haghaahhahaa ......
Decided to go home straight instead of joining them for dinner. Cos sudddenly felt that i should save my money.hehehe... maybe cos i want to buy christmas gift and cards for the special someone and of course my long 'lost' or 'touch' frenz... hehehe .. was thinking when should i go shopping for those stuffs...
Yesterday when i woke up, i realised that my shoulder is kinda burned and maybe my cheek too... so immediately i apply some lotion..... hmm... time to buy sun block , dun want to get scolding anymore...hehe... Was suppose to go to school to do my CCA stuff , but in the end, i have to cancel it as my another parnter wanted to change the date... can understand as she just finished her last paper while i have finished for quite sometimes...... Was so bored till Kat come to my house... Was teaching her how to use blogger.... n m really satisfying...Went hv to buy my sun-block and then .... (where else can i head to....) we went swimming ... hehe... finally some excerise for me.. hehe.. Was really surprised as i swam cos i was actually flying ...hehe.... Wat i mean is, its the first time i see myself swimming so fast and relaxed that i dun want to stop until i finish 10 laps.... n when i finished 10 laps, i actually not tired at all ... I finished 10 laps at less than 30 min and i think its really good... hehe... Kat was saying , its the power of love ...heheh.. i think so too ..h.ehehe....
At the same day, i was looking through all my cards that i have kept through these yrs ... i really like to collect cards and especially cards with meaningful words written by my frenz for me... Think the oldest cards i have is those from my primary school whereby the cards are hand-made by my fellow frenz to me..heheh... N as i read through them, i suddenly feel like crying , and so so touched by a couple of my frenz as i read their cards for me. N a couple of them never fail to send me a card for every ocassions .... U guy know who u r .. thanks you ...
Anyway, i realised that i actually gotten 3 valentine cards .... and was really happy cos my sis is always there for me...hehehe.....
Before i end my day, i have to help Diana to finish up a Chinese letter which she dun even know how to type.. but then , think again, i really find it very cute of her, she is still like the same old Diana that i know... n the feeling is great.... Of course, i will definitely be willing to help my 'twin' sis. Get to know wat happen to her lately. Though its not a very long chat with her cos i need to help her with her stuffs, i find it meaningful enough. Thats how it should be .... A frenz is always there for you no matter wat and the friendship will never dies no matter how long u haven been seeing each other.... We are a very good example.... N i'm so lucky to have her .... hehehe.... Of course that included my sis- ying, meing tze and kat... and not forgetting my buddy at jc- the three Js...heheh....
Have to go school today to finish 2 programmes list for my CCA ... goodness , dunno when will it ends, but anyway, i prepared to go shopping after that if everything end early.. or not , i will have to rush home to watch the final esipode of Holland V ...heheh... have a good day ppl ... i miss all of u ...hehehe
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/28/2003 09:27:00 AM
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Have a very slack day today... wat trying to think of things to do.. but couldnt seem to find anything to do... In the end, i ended up watching any tv programme...hehe.. went to run today... finally went to run ... Its like its abt 4 months since i last run. Trying to force myself to run everyday to keep fit and swimming too ..hehe.. OH oh.... N of course reading ..hehe... suddenly felt that i'm different. Dunno y .. but different. N the most important thing is i like the different in me. It makes me feel really better.... looking forward for everything and being positive for everything... feeling really happy .... going sentosa tml...hehe.. finally going to my beloved island....
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/26/2003 12:43:00 AM
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jus got back from my chalet. Have been escaping from the reality and my lifestyle for the weekend. N really feel a lot better after the stay. Its like, i can finally enjoy myself with the slow and simple lifestyle which i will just slack there and do nothing. hehe. went to national lib and borrow a couple of books. Finally got a chance to read some books and the feeling is actually very good. Think i should really start picking up the hobby on reading.
Think i'm getting fatter. Should start going swimming and running. N shouldnt forgot that i'm actually suppose to help two of my frenz set up a blog...hehe ....
Now back to my lifestyle again. Fresh beginning, fresh day. ganbatte ,Trish... N for those still having exam , it will be over soon, perserve k .
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/24/2003 02:46:00 PM
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Horray ... Finally finished my exam ... hehe ... n was quite happy with my last paper cos i can finish all the 3 essay on time... was so afriad that i couldnt finish....heehe ... stay back in school to slack for a while ..hheh.. thought of going swimming ... but then , when i see the weather, suddenly have no mood to swim.... maybe i should go n take a nap ( while my frenz is still having paper...hahaa ) n see how later....
Working tml ..after work .. i will head straight to my hotel n slack ...heheh.... definitely want to enjoy myself this two days... m thinking wat should i do.... hmm... got plans for sat afternoon... evening haven plan yet... its either i go n have a coffee or go pasa malan or go cheong....hehe... sunday..... got east coast or sentosa to cycle the whole day.... set .... hehehe.......... those that are still having exam ... good luck pal ... n best wishes...
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/21/2003 03:08:00 PM
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Doraemon's ending...
As you know, Doraemon is a story with no ending, but this small story is about the "last episode" of the famous cartoon. Someone made this story and uploaded it to his homepage, and it is now widely spread all around Japan through the internet.
Here it goes; One day,a very normal day, Nobita came back from school and went up stairs of his house. Doraemon was there sleeping, just like the other normal day.
"Hey, Doraemon, please wake up, lets play! " but Doraemon does not wake up. Nobita thought that Doraemon is tired, so he went out to play with Shizuka-chan
and other folks. After few hours, he returned to his home, but Doraemon was still sleeping. Nobita felt something strange, and tried to wake him up. But there was no reply. He became to feel afraid, and tried to wake him up, but whatever he does, Doraemon did not wake up. Nobita exactly knew that something was different. This never happened before. He began crying, but though he screamed or cried, the famous fat-cat-robot did not make a single move at all. He came up to one idea, and jumped into his desk the time machine-and went to the future to meet Dorami-chan,
Doraemon's sister. He begged her for help, and forced her to go with him back to 1998.
After a short trip again back to 1998 by the time machine, Dorami-chan looked all over his brother Doraemon to see what was wrong with him.
After few minutes, she said "the battery is out" Nobita was relieved,and said, "battery? so he is not broken right? please replace or recharge his battery, and put him back like before"
But Dorami-chan shook her head and said, "Nobita-san, should I really do that?" Nobita said "what? what do you mean?" Dorami-chan replied; "His main battery is
here, close to his pocket. And it ran out. But originally, he had a back-up battery in his ears, but as you know, his ears were eaten by a rat very many years ago, so he does not have a back-up battery now" "so what do you mean?" "I mean, if I replace his battery, every memory of you will be eternally lost from his brain program"
"WHAT?????" "Shall I do that?" Nobita closed his eyes. He cried, but after few minutes, he stopped crying, and quietly told Dorami-chan; "Dorami-chan, thanks for
coming here. I will take care of the rest. You have to go back to your future time now" Dorami-chan could not decide what to do, but anyway she hugged Nobiya quietly, and she went back home. After she went back,Nobita carried Doraemon and placed him into the shelf.
.........TIME FLIES..........
Year 2010, Nobita grew up. Since that day, he changed.He studied hard,did not cry anymore, and he lived without Doraemon.He told Shizuka and other folks that Doraemon had to go back to his future, and could not meet him anymore. Shizuka was impressed to Nobita's mysterious appearance which became completely different from10years ago. They fell in love, and married. Nobita became a scientist. He made a laboratory in his room, and was studying hard with his job all day.He told Shizuka not to come into the room, as it is very dangerous inside. But one day,
he called Shizuka and told her to come in to his room. It was the first time for her to enter her husband's room. The moment she went in, she lost her words
......There was her friend Doraemon, who she used to play in her childhood days. Doraemon was not moving. It seemed as he was sleeping.
"Look, Shizuka, I will plug in from now" Nobita turned on the main switch on Doraemon. Doraemon quietly, very quietly started to open his eyes. It was the moment the inventor of Doraemon became clear. It was Nobita. He studied hard and hard just to meet and talk with his old friend again. Going back and forth of time, Nobita was the one who madeDoraemon. He discovered all the programs and
archetecture of Doraemon-type-robot. Nobita and Shizuka was crying gently. Doraemon opened his eyes. He looked around, and finally said, "Nobita-kun, did
you finish your homework?" There was the same white clouds in the sky like the times they used to spend together.
If by chance all he had to give you
Was three words wrapped around his finger
Would that be deep enough at the end of every day
And how will you ever know
If a man is what he says?
clAy aiKeN_meaSurE of a Man
"Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful."
-Joshua J. Marine
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/20/2003 11:27:00 AM
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In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.
Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.
I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.
How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.
Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.
So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yours elf to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you have become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.
You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.
If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enoug h to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.
Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.
But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?
Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "t he one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."
You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/19/2003 05:03:00 PM
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There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel. For fear of embarrassing the other person, or ourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words "I love you." So we try to communicate the idea in other words. We say 'take care' or 'don't drive too fast' or 'be good.' But really, these are just other ways of saying 'I love you,' 'you are important to me,' 'I care what happens to you,' 'I don't want you to get hurt.'
We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don't say. And yet, because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean. And many times the meaning never gets communicated at all and the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted.
Therefore, we have to LISTEN FOR LOVE in the words that people are saying to us. Sometimes the explicit words are necessary, but more often, the manner of saying things is even more important. A joyous insult carries more affection and love within the sentiments which are expressed insincerely. An impulsive hug says I LOVE YOU even though the words might be saying very different. Any expression of a person's concern for another says I love you. Sometimes the expression is clumsy, sometimes even cruel. Sometimes we must look and listen very intently for the love that contains. But it is often there, beneath the surface.
A mother may nag her son constantly about his grades or cleaning his room. The son may hear only the nagging, but if he listens carefully, he will hear the love underneath the nagging. His mother wants him to do well, to be successful. Her concern and love for her son unfortunately emerge in her nagging. But it is love all the same. A daughter comes home way past her curfew, and her father confronts her with angry words. The daughter may hear only the anger, but if she listen carefully, she will hear the love under the anger. "I was worried about you," the father is saying. 'Because I care about you and I love you. You
are important to me.'
We say I love you in many ways - with birthday gifts, and little notes, with smiles and sometimes with tears. Sometimes we show our love by just keeping quiet and not saying a word, at other times by speaking out, even brusquely. We show our love sometimes by impulsiveness. Many times we have to show our love by forgiving someone who has not listened to the love we have tried to express.
The problem in listening for love is that we don't always understand the language of love which the other person is using. A girl may use tears or emotions to say what she wants to say, and her boyfriend may not understand her because he expects her to be talking his language.
Thus, we have to force ourselves to really listen for love. The problem with our world is that people rarely listen to each other. They hear the words, but they don't listen to the actions that accompany the words or the expression on the face. Or people listen only for rejection or misunderstanding. They do not see the love that is there just beneath the surface, even if the words are angry. We have to listen for love in those around us.
If we listen intently we will discover that we are a lot more loved than we realize. Listen for love and we will find that the world is a very loving place, after all.
LOVE is a happy thing. It makes us laugh. It makes us sing. It makes us sad. It makes us cry. It makes us seek the reason why. It makes us take. It makes us give. Above all else it makes us LIVE. It is not the presence or absence of people that makes the difference because a person need not be lonely even if he is alone. Sometimes it is good to be alone. But that does not make us lonely. It is not a matter of being present WITH someone. It is a matter of being present TO someone.
So remember ... If you love someone, tell them. Remember always to say what you mean. Never be afraid to express yourself. Take this opportunity to tell someone what they mean to you. Seize the day and have no regrets. Most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today and are what it's all about anyway. - tekis
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/17/2003 10:42:00 AM
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just finished one paper yesterday. n immediately after that i went down orchard to watch the nike freestyle... REally think that its a nice competition, especially the moves n the skill. REally enjoy myself there n were so glad to be there.... most of the people are football player, a couple were basketball, but most that make it to the final were basketball player. Some of them were really very good. The way they did their moves and the confidence that they had... They moved with the music and have the attitude look which is so coolll... actually to be frank, think to get into the final, you need to know at least a basic or advance of break dance.... cos thats where the attitude came abt... As i have to meet ying, i have to leave before the start of the final. But was still satisfied as i at least got a chance to watch ..hehe... Hope i know who win...heheh...realised i really like hip hop a lot ...hehehe.
Anyway, went to have 2 moives after that-- Le divorce and Wishing stairs.
for le divorce, actually i still dunno wat is the moral of the show but like the way how the american gals suit into the france culture... With the langauge and style. Though, its hard to make the change of lifestyle and find true love... but guess most romance show have a good ending... hehee ...
For wishing stairs, have been wanting to watch that n are glad to watch it yesterday. Rush from Cine to Tiong Bahru just to get an earlier show for it ...hehe... Though its meant to be a horror moive, i felt that there are more to that. Acutally the show is not really very scary, especially the part where they copied the Ring and it looked really stupid. Was telling my friend that the Ring has been setted as the standard for horror movie n for others to do better, they bond to copy the same part from the Ring... Hope i can see a better and more creative korean or jap horror moive soon... cos m really disappointed abt that part.. anyway, that not wat i wanted to say ....Wat i want to say is wat i felt after the whole show... the moral that i really get after the show.
Moral of the story:
1. When one faces a difficult situation/ thing that one cannot solve, one will try to depend on the unrealistic stuff/ others to help one solves it, instead of trying one's best to solve it.
2. A person greatest evil is GREED. Cos its greed that will cause a person to betary anyone, even best friend. Its also the main thing that will destroy a long term friendship/relationship which one has built up.
3. There is no free meal in this world. People will need to pay for the things that they done. An eye for an eye. A blood for a blood...Want you do something bad, prepare to pay for it.
4. Whatever is done cannot be undone. When things happen, there is no way that you can undo it. when it happens, it happened. So pls think twice when you do something... before its too late.
This what i realised after watching the show. For those that r watching the show, enjoyed. I wish everyone will not make the same mistake that everyone made.... Cos most of the time, the loss always overweight the gain....
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/16/2003 01:56:00 PM
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Just finished my first paper today. M really pissed cos the formula sheet that i spent my whole yesterday writting is so useless...... the time allocated to finish the paper is so short that everyone is so afraid that there is not enough time to finish the paper. I,myself, spent 1 hour finishing the mcq... that is so discouraging as i only have one more hour left to finish all my section B qns- 5 structure qns... if u have done structure qns before, u should know its IMPOSSIBLE to finish 5 qns in 1 hour.... especially me ..cos i will always take a longer time to finish the qns ... N i missed out one qns n didnt have time to do the last qns too... sian sian sian.. but then, think again, its not so bad after all... didnt really have the total hopeless expression.. so should be ok ....hahahaa.... anyway, one paper down, three more to go .... i only have one more module that i haven touched on..so got to study reading it now...hehee....
PS: next paper on tues, last paper on fri .... 6 more days to go.... hehehe
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/15/2003 01:34:00 PM
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My exam started tml. i have been perparing for it days and nights recently, but out of a sudden, i feel distracted again.Really wanted to concentrate for it as its something i need to do. Studying in school with frenz, going swimming, sometime going out early to eat with ying or at home n sometime staying over night in school to "study". Life for me have been nothing but studying.
But then, i received a msg from him yesterday. was really surprised cos i couldnt believe that he will msg me at this stage, after all the thing that happen.
Actually, i also couldnt really explain how could we get till this stage. Everything has been fine except when we start quarrelling. As i always say, its not abt the love that we have for each other, its the understanding, accepting n giving in part. I really bu gan xin.... after alll we have been through, after so long, after so much, we have to end up like this. I have been extremely not like me recently. with exam, stress everything..... i felt so jealous when i see couples.... they seems so happy ...
back to the point that i received a msg from him. He ask whether i will be interested to join him for his thai trip. Actually, i know why he ask, becos i told him before, but what i dun understand is why ask now? how could he ask now after wat happen? Is he trying to tell me something by asking or m i thinking too much? will he really want mi to go? how will we feel if i agree to go without even solving our stuff first? There are so many qns in my mind when he msg me.but i jus dunno how to put it across to him... its not as easy as him think, "if u want can join us"...of course i can join if i want.. but will i really enjoy myself or eventually i will get wrost.... Sometime i just wish that i haven been so hot-tempered and rush. If i could think of the consequences before reacting, maybe we will not end up like this .. n i will definitely go on a holi with him... cos i really wanted to go on a holi with him...
i dreamt of him yesterday night, dreaming of him going to depart from the airport, dreaming of 3 situations whereby - first: i'm going with him. n wat will happen at thai. second: i dun go with him. but i go n send him off. Third: i dun go with him n i dun go n send him either... i really hope i could choose the first... but then i rejected his offer. i'm kinda regret, but i need to be firmed abt it ...cos everything when i followed my heart blindly without thinking of the consequences, it always cock up .... but my second concern is actually the money pro... he is going for a week and dun have the money to go, n i will be losing chances to earn money... but then, if he really wish that i will go with him, i really dun mind to put down everything... but he didnt .. he didnt tell mi anything.... that make mi sad.... he should know that if he say something, i will definitely agree .. but he choose to keep quiet. thats means, he is not really keen on having mi following as well.... I'm just assuming....
I need to work on the 26, 27, 29th of dec.... n maybe my tut will start again... n i might be going to learn my motor riding.... so i couldnt afford the time for anyone else except for him. ... i hope he can understand that ... but then, so wat if he understand that...
On one end, i hope my exam will be over in a min. On the other, i dun hope so, becos the end of exam will mean the decision.... a decision that i not keen on.... not expecting.... yet couldnt be avoided.... For the time being, i really feel that there is nothing that can interest mi.... really nothing.... the onli small thing that can can at least excite me is the motor riding.... something that no one agree to let me learn but something that i always wanted to learn.... i have to go learn it cos if i dun.. there is nothing that i'm looking forward to... not even coming back home....
thats how sucking i'm feeling .....
posted by Trish daydreaming at 11/14/2003 10:59:00 AM
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